My Story1

Financially stressed

This is a true to life story. Some may not believe it but it happened. I just want to share this experience thru wattpad because I am really depressed right now.

Since I was a kid, I was abused by my own family. My mother doesn't like me. How can I say that? I felt it. She doesn't care. She's even asking my father to slap me, kick me, hit me.... But despite of those maltreatment, I still tried my best to do the things that I thought they would like. I did my best just to be better than my sister. She got the result of her exam and she was praised by them. I got mine and it was almost perfect, not perfect but definitely higher than her score but I heard nothing. They didn't bother to look at the paper. I saw my parents were so happy when my brother learned to play his guitar. I don't have guitar and I can't touch their things or even borrow it. So what I did was, every afternoon after doing the house chores, I go to our neighbor's place to play guitar. In other words, I did it all by myself. When I was able to play few songs, I told them that I already knew how to play guitar and even read guitar chords. So proud of it... but unfortunately, I was ignored.

Let's try to remember my high school days. Nothing's change. On my 3rd year, I was so excited to join the Junior and Senior Prom. It was the most memorable part of my life. You know why? I thought it would be the most memorable because I'll enjoy the party but that's not what happened. It's just one of the worst. Why? Well, if your going to a prom night, you're expected to wear a gown or a cocktail dress, right?! Like everyone wore their ball gowns. Others were in their cocktail dresses while mine was like a bank teller or teacher's uniform. How are you going to join the dancing?! I just sat at the backseat and just watched everyone dancing and happy. Well, no one can see me cuz I sat where I can't be noticed. I just watched them until the end of the party. Well, I just thought no one noticed me, the following day, everyone at the room is saying I was like a professor last night. Some said that I was like a bank teller. And they told me that I should've stayed home. Well, I already told my parents of staying at home when I saw that but they told me to go. And I can't or I'm not allowed to disobey or disagree with anything they tell me to. After that day, I chose to just be alone. Even in school, I'm not talking to anyone. I was bullied by my classmates. I almost even got raped because one of my classmate tried to make friends with me. When she got my trust, she asked me to go to some address and she'll meet me there. I arrived and knocked on the door. When the door opened, this guy who opened the door was also a student on our school but he's a 4th year student. There were almost 8 people in there. 6 boys and 2 girls but my classmate was not there. This guy who opened the door grabbed me inside. I was shaking and really nervous because after locked the door, I saw him removing his belt and 2 boys came as well and held me. I cried and begged them to let me go. Good thing, someome knocked at the door, and he started to put his belt back. When he opened the door, I saw group of boys. I managed to run through the door because the need to do a handshake... I just ran as fast as I can and without looking back. Yes, I went there because I thought she was my friend. But the saddest part is that, no one from my family knows it because they don't even want to talk to me. That was just some of the traumatic experience I had during my highschool days. I'll create a different story for my difficult highschool time.

Well, the reason why I wrote this is because until now, I'm still being maltreated by them. I'm already a family woman. I have 2 boys. But I'm on my dark days right now. My sons examination week is on monday and I haven't paid their tuition  fee yet. I lost my recent job but already got a new one however, my start date will still be on the 28th of this month. I need to pay kids tuition to get them examination permit. I asked their help. I told them that I'll pay them once I got my final pay or my first salary whichever comes first. You know what I got from them, those nasty words that I've been hearing eversince. I can't help but cry. I already accepted the fact that I can't be good with them and can't get any help from them... but this is not for me, it's for my kids... I just feel bad. I don't know what to do anymore. In fact, they are my last resort. I already asked help from my friends but they have their own issues as well.

Just sharing because I have no one to talk to... #sadlife #veryunfortunate