I Love Both of His Sides [Dexter Fanfiction]

Chapter Five

Dexter was standing right in front of me. I could not believe that he was. He was supposed to be here around 7:30pm. The time right now is 7:00 pm. He is about thirty minutes early. I wondered why he was here early. Dexter had no emotion in his look which he tended to have so it was nothing new to me. Tears were in my eyes. I was crying because I did not want to leave Miami but I knew I had to so I did not have to ruin Dexter's life anymore.

Dexter asked, "Krissy, are you okay? Are you going somewhere?"

I responded in a sad voice, "I am leaving Miami Dexter.."

Dexter replied with a frown on his face, "Why are you leaving Miami? Didn't you want me to help you with your Dark Passenger? I fear without me, you may do something very bad. I need to help you, I know that for a fact. I do not believe there is anyone else out there that can help you. Stay and let me help you."

"I do want help with my Dark Passenger. I know that you would be able to help me. I also know that I may do something bad without your help but I do not want to ruin your life. That is why I need to get out of here. I do not want to ruin anything of yours, Dexter." I said with my sad voice remaining.

Dexter asked with a confused look on his face, "What do you mean you do not want to ruin my life? How have you ruined my life?"

I sighed. I thought about telling him that I am pregnant. I mean he does have the right to know. He is the father of my child. Dexter was the only man I slept with so he is the only choice. It is indeed important he knows. Any father should know about their children.

"Dex, what I am about to tell you could ruin your relationship with Rita. I have ruined it enough. I know how much you feel about her. I would not want to come in between that" I said keeping the sad tone of my voice.

Dexter responded, "Krissy...look you will not ruin my relationship with Rita. Rita and I are over. "

I asked in confusion, "What do you mean? Did I ruin your relationship too much where there was no way to fix it?"

Dexter shook his head and said, "You did nothing to ruin Rita and I. If at all, I ruined Rita and I. I broke it off with Rita. I mean, she is a nice woman. She had her problems which helped me connect with her since I had problems but she doesn't fully understand me. She doesn't fully know me. If she would have fully known me, I do not believe she would have accepted me. I do not believe she would have kept my secret safe. I believe she would have told the cops because Rita seemed like a woman of morals. It seemed to me that she did not like killers. I am one so it would have not ended well for me. She would have ran from me. I am certain about that. You fully know me. You have not ran from me. You are not afraid of me. You are not afraid of the monster that I am. You accept me for the monster that I am. You are the second person to do so besides my father Harry. I guess what I am saying is that I would like to have a relationship with you. I am not good with these relationships so I will need some help. I did my best in my childhood to refrain from relationships since I was not into them. I was more into killing. I had no emotions but you understood that and you still understand that. I got into this relationship with Rita to blend in with the world so no one would think that I had something to hide. I wanted to seem normal. I did have some feelings for her because I began to gain it but like I said I had to end it. You will be the first relationship that I will take more seriously than anything. I will try to understand feelings more. I believe we would make the best serial killer couple out there. You said you would help me with the killings. No one would be able to stop us. What do you say?"

I was in complete shock. I could not believe that Dexter wanted to be with me. What he said was true though. I could not deny that. I understood him. The reason I understood him is because I am exactly like him. I posse a Dark Passenger like he does. At my young age, I did my best to hide it. I blended in with everyone in high school. I know what he means, I was never interested in dating much in high school. I dated to blend in. I was more into killing too. I held it in deep all of these years until the killer of my mother brought it back out. It was all thanks to Dexter that I have been controlling it otherwise innocent people would be dead. We would be the best serial killer couple out there, taking out all the bad guys who escaped justice. It seemed semi-romantic in a way. No one would really be able to stop us. I mean since no one else knows and we would hide so well. It seemed like the perfect plan.