Hi
Ive just been thinking a lot lately about whats been happening around me. Stuff mostly about how life generally works, and how people can be a pain in the ass sometimes..
So to update people on whats been happening to me lately. (For people who dont know, ive been in a long term relationship with this amazing girl. Weve been together for a year and 8 months, and it became a long distance relationship cause i had to go to Japan to work, and she stayed in the Philippines cause she had work too. So yeah..) First off, me and my girl broke up, making her an ex. Well I can't really blame her, since we were on a long distance relationship for as long as 9 months in our 1 year 8 month relationship. Actually spending our anniversary apart was really heart breaking, well i wont go into detail of how it all went down, just know that we did kinda end it on good terms. I was pretty understanding of the situation. Well im the kinda guy who doesnt really wanna get mad about things that would have reason. It was my fault for going to Japan in the first place. If only i hadn't, then we wouldnt have a pretty hard time. Just had to think about a few things.
Presently, shes with this other guy now. Yes, its fast, but what can we do. They seem pretty happy with each other, and all i can do is to be happy for her. I loved her and i dont regret anything ive done for her. We were happy, and it was good until it lasted. She found her happiness in another guy, who am i to stop her from being happy right? It wasnt like she cheated on me or something... ha ha..
Well to get back to my point, I kept on thinking what happened wrong, or more specifically what I did wrong.Everything happens for a reason, apparently, so what happened? I dont really know for sure, and my friends kept telling me that sometimes, things arent just because of the two of us. That in a relationship, sometimes its the outside things that are the reason for the sudden change of heart. True that i wasnt there to make sure, but i dont have any other thoughts on it. Maybe, that it really was out of my control. So instead of crying about it and complaining that she was a bitch to have left me all alone (which i didnt), i stood my ground, and was mature about the whole thing. Im still not fully moved on, i think. I think about her from time to time but i think thats only because im bored, and feel kinda lonely. So i can say that im okay with the whole situation of me and her. Were still friends, no awkwardness anymore and stuff like that.
Just to be clear, we have already talked post-breakup and we were doing kinda good. Just not bringing up the whole thing to avoid akwardness. Cause you know, its only akward if you make it akward, right? Well yeah, still wished it couldve gone better, but meh. Thats life.
So secondly, been thinking about what i would do now. Now that im single, and 22. Im planning to move back to Japan, you know, try and fend for myself instead of constantly thinking of the future of a relationship. Gonna try and look after myself from now on and do whats nessesary. Its kinda lonely thinking that im not really looking forward to meeting girls there, cause personally, im not into Japanese girls. No offense, but theyre just not my type. Unless they can speak full english then ill think about it haha. Its hard because now that i look into my past relationship and how happy i was with her, it made me excited to fall in love again you know. To meet someone so special that the thought of her smile, and me being the reason for that smile. Thats bliss for me. I realized that im the kinda guy who is generally and sincerely happy with making her woman happy. So everytime i think about the past, i just get so excited to feel that again. To do those things again, and to see a smile on the girl that i love's face again. Thinking that ill be in Japan, its sad to think that its rare to find a girl there that could be of any good. Well, she (my ex) did set the bar really high to be honest. So now, im not gonna focus on getting any romance in my life any time soon. Just gonna focus on some me time.. And if i can, some little fun ofcourse.
Lastly, I've been talkin to a friend of mine whos actually going through the same stuff my ex was going through. Her boyfriends in another country, and theyve been apart for about 9 months now, and she told me that shes starting to doubt. Me and this girl have a really complicated past, but we remained really close friends through out the years, and weve been helping each other out since then. Lets just say that i even came to love this girl in the past, i still love her now, but you know. its different. Anyway, helping her out in her relationship made me realize how hard it really was, and it also made me think about our past, me and this girl. I used to really like this girl, but i blew my chance. We were just too young then, so i didnt really know any better. She doesnt know this but she was the one who made me realize never to give up on something. Me giving up the best oppurtunity that i had with her, made me never want to give up on anything good ever again. So i told her that. Dont ever give up on anything you think would give you happiness. Unless ofcourse when your partner starts to hurt you, thats another thing coming. So i told her to wait it out. To wait for her boyfriend to come back so she can be sure of her decision. Cause decisions like that are life changing. Believe me. Lifes too short for regrets.
So yeah, thanks for letting me vent out.. If anyone ever even reads this, hope you guys know that these kinds of problems dont just happen to a few people. Many people experience them, and life still goes on after that. It helps to know that it will get better. Trust me. It hasnt happened to me yet, but it will. Thanks for the reads guys, I apreciate it :)
