'I need to know where you've been,' I protest.
I stood infront of him with my arms on my hips, intensely looking at him with my raging eyes.
'Let's talk about this later.. I'm tired..' he said.
'No, Jimin! You just have to tell me where you've been! Why can't you just tell me?!' I scream at him.
'Y/N, calm down, please. You don't need to rage. It's not that big of a deal,' he said as if I don't care about what he's doing.
'Y/N, I'm tired... Please.. Just stop..' he said. 'I'm so sick of arguing with you every night. I'm tired of seeing you mad at me. Don't you get tired?'
'I'm tired too, Jimin! I hate arguing with you! I hate screaming at you! But you leave me no choice, but to do so! You're making it so hard for me to live as your girlfriend, and I think...' I stopped, and he looked at me with his eyes filled with fear, knowing what I was about to say. 'I think I can't do this anymore..'
'Y/N..' he stood up from the couch and went to me. He held me by my arms and pulled my into his embrace, but I didn't hug back. 'We can't... leave each other, knowing that we both... love each other... so much..' he whispered in my ear.
'I told you... I'm already tired,' I sigh. My lower lip started to shake as I kept in my sobs. I cried on his chest silently. 'W-what if we take a... break?' I looked up at him, releasing myself from his secure arms.
'W-what?' he questioned as if I was speaking a foreign language.
'Let's take.. a break.. Give each other some space... before we get back together... We just need to.. find ourselves..' I said, looking down, not wanting to meet his eyes.
'What about my birthday? You won't be with me?' He was about to cry as his tone says it all.
'I don't know..' I walk to the counter and took my belongings. I looked at him, walking his way towards me to prevent me from leaving him.
'Y/N, don't go.. Please.. I'm scared,' he pleaded like a kid who's being left by his mother in the dark.
'Scared of what, Jimin? Don't act like a baby..'
'I'm scared you might not come back anymore... I'm scared that might not see me again, anymore... Please, Y/N.. Just stay.. Stay with me..'
'I can't always be beside you.. I'm not your mother.. You can't always depend on me..' I walk to the door, but spoke before I left. 'I promise.. I'm coming back to you.. Don't be scared..'
I shut the door and went somewhere I could spend the days. I need to be alone. I need to relieve myself from all the stress. I hate to say this, but... it's all because of him...
9 days later, Jimin's Birthday
My phone goes off with a reminder indicated on the screen. Jagiya's Saeng-il, it said.
I smiled to myself. 'It's his birthday.. Damn.. I miss him.'
I decided to meet him now after being alone for 9 days. I hope he's doing fine.
I got myself ready before going to the park we always go to whenever it's his birthday.
I stood there, trying to find him through those crowds, but he wasn't there. I searched, and I searched, until I found him. His back facing me.
I didn't want to be so clingy all of a sudden, so I just walked behind him and tapped him by his shoulder. 'Jimin?'
He turned around with his eyes wide. 'Y-You can see me?' he questioned. I was confused.
'Of course.. Why wouldn't I be able to see you?' I questioned, expecting him to answer to end my curiosity.
'Y-Y/N..' he stuttered at his words, afraid to tell me the news.
'Just spill,' I shrugged.
'Y-Y/N.. Can you spend your life without me?' he asked out of blue.
'I... Why do you bother to ask?'
'Will you be able to?' he asked, wanting me to answer him with a real answer, not a question.
'No..' I admit. 'I can't live without you, Park Jimin. You're the only one I have, and I can't seem to picture you being not in my life. I may have screamed, cursed, or argued with you, but.. I have to admit.. It hurts me when I do that. We both hurt because of each other, right?' I sighed as tears threatened to fall. 'I missed you in those 9 days.. I couldn't do it.. without yo-.'
He suddenly hugged me tight, gripping on me shoulder as if something was taking me away from him. 'But, Y/N.. I-I'm already dead...'
My eyes widen. 'You're joking,' I pushed him away, not satisfied with his joke. It hurt me. 'That's not a good joke, Jimin. It's not funny.'
He looked down, his figure starting to hollow. My breath hitched as he started to fade. 'N-no.. This isn't true..' I covered my mouth as tears rushed in while he faded.
He mouthed 'I love you.. Always,' before he faded away. I ran around, looking for him everywhere. 'Jimin! Where are you?' I screamed at the middle of the feild, earning looks from the people, but I didn't care. All that matters is.. him.
I ran to his home, and went inside. It was dark inside. Curtains closed, lights off. 'J-Jimin?' I managed to say aloud, expecting him to answer or either climb down the stairs with his morning face.
I whispered 'please, please, please, please, still be alive..' wishing he would show up.
I climb up the stairs and to his room, just to see him lying down on the floor, his face all pale. 'Jimin!' I ran to his body and shook him. He isn't waking up.
'Don't leave me!' I scream as I abruptly shook him. 'Stop pranking me, please! What I saw earlier wasn't true! My mind was only playing tricks on me! Wake up, please!'
I expected him to open his eyes and smile, saying 'it's a prank' but he didn't. I started to lose hope.
'Do you remember the promises we made? The future we planned every night before we sleep, tightly lacing our fingers together. How we imagined how our marriage would be. How I'd walk down the aisle in the wedding dress you loved on me. How my hair would be tied up in a bun with decorated pins on my hair. How we both dressed up for each other. How our cake would be up to 10 layers. The flavor vanilla, with mocha icing. How we'd dance on the ballroom, infront of everyone as they watch us in awe... Didn't you say?.. We should always be truthful to each other, yet you didn't tell me you were dying!' I shout in anger.
I grip on his carpet, as I slowly started to feel weak, and that was when I layed down next to him, fluttering my eyes closed. Am I gonna be with you?
My vision blacked out and that was when I gasp and woke up in Jimin's room. The curtains were open. His body not on the floor. I hugged my knees. He's really gone.
The door suddenly opens and his figure walks in. No.. This can't be..
'It's my birthday, jagiya. Go get ready. I'm taking you on a date.'
He sat next to me, as I cupped his cheeks. He hovers his large warm hands on my small ones as tears formed in my eyes. I started to take happy breaths as I was happy he was alive. I hugged him tight as my tears fell.
'Jagiya? What's wrong?' he worriedly asked.
'I.. I thought you were... gone..' I hugged him tightly. 'I'm not letting you go.. I don't want you to leave. I won't let that happen.'
'I'm not going anywhere without you, Jagiya.' He slowly unwraps my arms from his waist, before he lifts up my chin and slowly leaned in to kiss me. He is... Alive.
I kissed him back. Feeling so happy it was all a dream. We broke the kiss and catched out breaths.
I smiled and looked deeply in his eyes. 'Happy birthday... Love..'
