SERENDIPITY - VSOO

Mad

Jisoo

I felt like I died from the inside.
I couldn't hear nor see anything around me.
It was like the time stopped.
My eyes were starting to gather tears.
I felt my throat tightening and a short intake of breath.
One sobbing escaped me,
my chin trembled.
I felt a hot tear finally starting to go down my face.
I started wiping it while making my way to the toilet but it didn't help.

My body felt nauseous.
My eyes were red and swollen.

*Even a blind person would see I'm crying."*

I let my soul out in a waterfall of tears. I think I've kept them in for too long. All this pressure had to be taken out sooner or later.
My heart bleed with pain and tears.

I locked myself in the toilet.
I couldn't take this anymore.
I don't want to feel anything for him anymore.
I don't want to see him anymore.
How this happened?
How did I get there? In this mess...
Why is life like this with me now?

I heard someone trying to unlock the door.

Rose:"Jisoo, I know you are in there.
Please open the door.
I made an excuse for you but I know why you're actually here.
I saw what you saw.
Let me be with you."

Rosie spoke to me from the other side of the door.

Hearing her sweet voice trembling with concern made me open the door.

Rose

I saw her tiny figure on the ground holding her legs with her hands while shaking.
Her lips were purple and her legs were a little bruised.
How could she stay so long here?
It's so cold here compared to outside.

I noticed she cried.
Her eyes were incredibly red.

I saw her looking at me like an innocent child who lost his mom and doesn't know what to do.

She must have really liked him a lot....
To be in such a pain, to cry .... Jisoo never cried, not for stupid reasons...

My heart broke to see my best friend like this.
This should have been the time of her life.

Rose:"Hey, let's get you back,
It's freezing here.
Jisoo, you'll catch a cold."

She just noded like she was incapable of speaking.
She could actually speak but I knew if she would try to explain me anything, things would only get worse.
So, I didn't want to pressure her more.
I just continued taking.

Rose:"How about we go back to the house to take your medicamentation?
You know the one for panick attacks.
I know it will calm you down."

She nodded again.

I went with her back to the house, told her to lay on the couch until I go to search for the medicine.
I came back as quickly as I could.
She was right where I left her.
You could read the concern in her eyes.
I don't think she was prepared to feel anything for anyone more than me and her mom. Those feelings even though she has them, she doesn't know what to do with them.

Rose:"Hey Jisoo, take this."
I held out my hand with medicamentation at her and she took them.

Jisoo:"God, they're horrible."
She said while making a little smile at me.

She relaxed a little.
I was happier seeing that after all that happened, she can still smile at me.

Now, I have to convince her to come back at the party so she can cheer up a little.
Staying here won't do anything good to her.