The Art of Letting Go

Part 1-3

started: Aug 15 07 cast: JanahDrewTrinaKayenMarahWil If there’s one girl you would be envy of.. that would be Janah. Name it all, she has it all. Looks, brain, body and richness. She’s just a 21 year old fresh grad from a very prominent university. But, there is one thing, only one thing that perhaps u would hate about her. She is a snob. YEs! as in S.N.O.B. Specially to boys. She has two bestfriends, Trina and Kayen… She has no BOYFRIEND. even BOY-friend. She only talks to two men. Her dad, and of course her very handsome, cutie kuya-Wil. Besides them, she hates all the men in the world. Ever wonder why? Well, she just thinks… MEn are not great friends- what more, boyfriends? When her dad was assigned to Baguio, they had no choice but to relocate. New adjustments for her, and little did she know that destiny will take its role here. J- kuya nakakainis naman noh, we’ll have to start at the beginning na naman!! i really hate it. W- naku okey lang yun no, para naman masanay tayo to be flexible. and besides, we would meet new friends here.. hindi naman ibig sabihin na we’d have to forget those people we left sa dati nating place diba? J-naku! im not even excited to meet new people here. W-naku. baby sister.. stop it, ok? just enjoy the place…. ————————————————————————————-D- honey, may bago pala tayong neighbor? jan sa kabilang apartment.. M- ahh.. eh ano naman ngayon? ikaw ha.. oras na malaman ko na may ginagawa kang di ko nagustuhan, lagot ka sakin D-naku! dont be paranoid ok? i guess, we have to be nice to them.. and welcome them.. baka sabihin pa nila na hindi friendly ang mga tao dito M-ah basta! baka umandar na naman ang pagiging chick boy mo, wag na wag kong makikita na ur talking with any girls jan sa kabila… kung hindi, magkalimutan na tayo… hhhmm… Drew and Marah… are kinda-sort-of, lovers.. partners.. couple? uhmm.. they live in the same apartment, but! they dont share rooms.. they are just somewhat, housemates. but with benefits, perhaps? Marah is very insecure with herself. she wants to have Drew for her alone. But Drew on the other hand, doesnt want to be dictated and would just do whatever he pleases. Yes, he is Marah’s Boyfriend, but it is just somewhat, complicated.————————————————————————————— Now, here is the twist of the story. The moment Drew laid his eyes on Janah, he felt something. Something so strange. something he hasnt ever felt before.. well ganun din naman si Janah.. but! she would never ever accept it to herself. coz she promised herself since time immemorial… na hinding hindi talaga xa makikipag close sa mga guys. —————————————————————————————D- excuse me, miss. i’ve heard, bagong lipat lang kayo… ahm. im Drew. and u are? J-excuse me too. but i dont talk to strangers. D- thats why im introducing myself to you.. so we wont be strangers with each other. J-in ur dreams.—————————————————————————————W-o anong nangyayari sayo?J-wala kuyaW-anong wala? u seem not in the mood noh. bakit ba?J-eh kasi naman the guy in the other apartment.. hmp nakakainisW-bakit ano bang ginawa nya sayo?J-nakikipagkilala.. if i know.. mga punchline lang nila yun.. to get girls. eww. i really hate guys nowadays.W-naku sis. dont u think ur being unfair? ur smart pa naman. u know what ur doin? u are over generalizing. hindi naman lahat ng guys gaya ng iniisip mo. teka, san mo ba nakuha ang notion na yan? nagka bf ka na ba???J-kuya, alam mo namang wala. and besides, i dont have to have a bf para malaman ko ang mga ugali nila. they are good for nothing u know. kayo lang naman ni daddy ang pinakabest para sakin eh.. and i dont need guys in my life.W-naku, kakainin mo rin yang mga sinasabi mo. u know what? women need men. and vice versa. so u cant say that u dont need man in ur life. dahil sooner or later magbabago rin ang pananaw mo. not all guys are the same, u know. dahil kung pareparehas lahat- u wouldnt even like us. maybe u just havent met the guy that would change ur views. wait till u meet him.J-naku kuya! surely i would regret that day!!!————————————————— (telephone)j-hello trinaT-hi janah, wazup?J- naku. heto new adjustments na naman. and duh. nakakainis naman ang mga neighbors namin. lalo na yung guy na yun ewwT-naku. sino na naman ba yan ha? if i know. isang cute na guy na naman…J-ahm… well…T-anong well???J-i wont deny na cute naman xa.. pero u know naman diba? i hate guys!T-yun na nga eh! y dont u give him a chance? malay mo.. iba sya!J-naku! all guys are the same noh.. kaya theres no need na makipag butihan pa ako sa kanya! i simply hate him.T-owz. sooner or later ul just prove urself wrong.. kaya watch out———————————————————- nang lumabas si Janah ng apartment,nakasalubong nya si Marah. yes, janah is a man hater. but she is friendly. to girls. kaya hindi xa nag hesitate na pansinin si Marah. J-hiM- hi too (but not smiling)J-im ur new neighbor.. im janah…. maybe we could be friends…M-im Marah. friends? im too busy. i dont have time for it.. besides, i have had lots of friends.ayoko ng madagdagan paJ-ah ganun bah? im sori for disturbing… *dumating si Drew* M-oh honey dumating kana pala.. i miss uD-yep. i miss u too… oh hi, miss…? ur here pala.. so ur two are friends?M-honey. u know naman diba? that i dont waste my time to strangers. me? wer not friends. i dont even know her. bigla nalang xang lumapit sakin asking for friendship. gnyan ba kadaling ma earn yan?J- excuse me. i didnt push my self to u. if u dont want my friendship so what? i could have lots of friends, u know. i dont have time wasting my time on u either. *sabay alis* D-miss… wait!!!M-honey? dont tell me ur defending her?D- bakit may ginawa ba xang masama sayo? i guess, shes just being friendly to uM-no! she wants to befriend me dahil gusto ka nyang kunin sakin! gusto nyang mapalapit sating dalawa!D- what made u say that? ni hindi nga nya ako kinausap nung nagkita kami kahapon.M-so… u talk with her? ano pa bang ginawa nyo?????D-i said wala! shes a snob. she doesnt talk to me…..M-shes a flirt. tingnan mo nga. nag papaimpress xa.. para sabihin na friendly xa… then may hidden motive na pala yun…D- how could you say things like that to her? may pruweba ka ba???? ————————————————————————–*drew’s diary*-i donno what happend. its just that the very moment i saw her. i felt something strange. is it because she has this beauty? no. i think its more than just her pretty face. i wanna know her better. i wanna be there for her. pero pano? ni hindi nya ako kayang kausapin. i wonder why shes like that.. but, i know she has her reasons. pano ba ito? why do i feel this way when i shouldnt feel this way? i have a girlfriend who is so insecure. yes i love her, but what do i feel for that girl? its really something strange. maybe so strange that only my heart could understand. am i falling for her? no. ive just met her twice. i hardly even talk to her.————————————————————————— *janah’s diary*-i didnt expect life to be like this. i am just being friendly. do i deserve this kind of treatment? bakit ganun nalang ang galit ng girl na yun sakin? have i done something wrong? wala naman diba? and that guy… he seemed so sweet.. he seemed so nice. pero hindi. hindi ako dapat ma apektuhan.guys will always be guys. baka pang front lang nya yun… i shouldnt get affected with what i feel….————————————————————————— one night may nagtext kay Janah. shes not really the type who would entertain stranger texters. but during this time, she cant help but exchange conversation with him. kasi he is so with sense of humor. little did she know that that guy is no other than DREW.————————————————————————– W-hi pareD-oh hi wil. thanks pala ha. u gave me ur sis’ numberW-naku wala yun! buti nga yun eh. para naman machange na ang bad notions nya toward guys.naku. napaka man hater kasi nya. and i donno what to do para ma change yun.D-naku pare. akong bahala… ul just be surprised, close na kamiW-aasahan ko yan pare. just promise me one thing. dont u ever dare hurt her. ako ang makakalaban moD-i promise! ————————————————————————- *drew’s diary*if its true that promises are made to be broken. then i shouldnt feel guilty about this. oo, at nag eenjoy ako texting with Janah. but hello, i already am committed. walang kaalam alam ang girlfriend ko that i am busy with another girl. ano ba ang dapat sundin ko? my mind says that this is wrong. but my heart says otherwise.———————————————————————— nagkita sina Janah, Trina and Kayen J-u know what guys… i think i like him..T&K-huh?J- i like him!T- sino?J-may textmate..K- naku. kailan ka ba nagka hilig sa txtmate ha?T- if i know, isa lang yang manloloko noh. wag ka ngang pumatol sa mga yanJ-teka, line ko yan palagi ah?T-exactly my point. ano bang nangyayari sayo? bat bigla2 nag change na ang mind mo towards guys?J-eh kasi namn po.. iba talaga xa.. and i think…. i think….K-u think what??J- i think i am falling for him!!!!K&T- what? hey are u crazy??? c’mon.. wake up!J- guys. relax okie? hindi pa naman ako nababaliw. what im trying to say is… iba xa.. he’s actually the reason why i change my thinking towards guys.K-naku janah. u dont even know ur textmate. baka mamaya isa yang drug addict.J-no of course not. and wel find out soon. dahil magmimeet na kamiT-huh? nako. basta dont blame us ha. wag mong sabihin na hindi ka namin pinagbawalan.———————————————————————– M- honey, bat ba ang busy busy mo jan sa cellphone mo. sino ba ang katext mo?D-naku honey. isang business client ko lang. dont tell me nagseselos kah?M-bat naman kasi hindi ako magseselos noh. eh plagi nalang cellphone mo ang inaatupag mo, wala kanang time sakinD-honey, para rin naman sa future natin ang ginagawa ko eh. kay no need to be jealous okie?———————————————————————– W-oh sis san ka pupunta?J-jan lang kuya sa plazaW-plaza? anong ggawin mo don? may ka meet kang text mate ano?J-kuya!!!W-defensive…..J-kuya pano mo nalaman?W-wala noh. brother instinct ko lang naman… cge sis! goodluck!! sana yan na ang destiny moh…J-wish me luck kuya ——————————————————————— pag dating ni janah sa plaza ay namataan nya agad si Drew.*hmp, ano kayang ginagawa ng taong ito dito*?? D- hi janahJ-huh? how did u know my name?D-well, i have sources, u knowJ-hmp. why am i talking wd u? umalis kah ngaD-ngek. is this ur place? pag aari mo ba ito?J-hindi. pero ayokong makita ang pagmumukha moD-teka.teka. bakit ba ang sungit2 mo sakin ha? may ginawa ba akong masama sayo? bat ba parang galit na galit ka sakin?J-in the first place. may rason ba para magustuhan kita? i dont even know u. why shouldnt i be mad at u?D-yun na nga eh. i am giving u every chances u could get para makilala ako. tapos balewala mo lang naman. do i look like a harmful person?J-noD-yun naman pala eh. so why cant we even have a chance to be friends??————————————————————————— *before her knowing it, nag uusap na sila. ang tagal nilang nag usap ang janah could feel na parang ang tagal na nilang magkakilala. nalimutan nya ang real reason kung bakit nandon xa sa plaza in the first place. para imeet ang textmate niya. who happens to be Drew all along. J-teka. im meeting my textmate palaD-sino? si Andrew?j-yep. pano mo…………..?*smile lang ang sinagot ni Drew* ————————————————————————— do every story has a happy beginning? how about a happy ending? that is the beginning of the story. but precisely that is not the end…. J-naku kuya ang happy happy ko talagaW-and why?J-kasi po naman.. may new guy friend na ako, si Drew. and he’s the best. wala akong maipintas sa kanya… he’s perfectW-sis, nobody’s perfect. and, wag ka rin masyado mag expect ha. kasi u dont know the person very well, baka masaktan ka lang in the endJ-naku kuya wala naman akong sinasabi. ours is pure friendship. kaya no need to worry ok?W-ganyan naman yan nagsisimula eh. ul just know ur falling na pala. just be aware sis. kasi i know it would be ur first heartache if ever. ayokong masaktan kah..———————————————————————— Janah’s diary*siguro nga tama si kuya. i shouldnt expect for something, dahil hindi ko pa naman talaga kilala ng lubusan si Drew. i dont know his family background. what i only know is masaya ako kapag kasama ko xa. pero hindi naman cguro sapat yun para mahulog ang loob ko sa kanya. really i do not close the idea of me falling for him. i know it is very possible. pero, ayoko. i would stop myself from falling because i know he wouldnt be there to catch me if i fall. may girlfriend na xa. infact, they are living together. malay ko ba if married na nga ba sila. i dont have the guts to ask. baka masaktan lang ako.. pero hanggang kailan ko kayang dayain ang sarili koh? until when would i pretend that everything is fine?———————————————————————— Drew’s diary*i know i am not doing fine. may gf akong tao. bakit ako nakikipag close sa ibang babae? is my gf not enough? ours is something na alam kong hindi na kayang wasakin pa ng kahit sino. wev built our relationship for so long. i dont need to doubt my feelings for Marah kasi wev been tested with so many challenges and struggles nah. pero ano itong nararamdaman ko for Janah?————————————————————————- D-Jan, i know this is wrong,but if i may ask u.. do u feel anything for me?J-hah? what made u ask that?D-wala naman.. its just that its kinda weird why we came this close. alam naman natin pareho that i am already committed to someone else.J-ahm.. yeah. friendship. thats what i feel for u.. at kaya tayo.. naging ganito ka close.. because we are like… bestfriends….D-ganun ba yun sayo?J-yep… why is there somethng wrong?D-nope… i was just asking…———————————————————————— *yep. that is janah. she had the chance na diba? she could tell drew how she really feels about him. kaya lang hindi nya sinabi. instead she said na friendship lang ang nararamdaman nya for him.*and yes, that is drew. parang he’s afraid to open up the idea or the thought that they might feel mutually for each other dahil alam naman nyang hindi tama.*ano ba talaga ang dapat unahin? puso o ang isipan? bakit ngayon lang sila nagkakilala? janah’s diary*-yes. bakit ngayon lang? bakit ngayon kung kailan napaka complicated ng lahat? i wanna fight. i wanna feel how it felt to be inlove. pero am i doing this with the right person? what if he’s the wrong one after all? drew’ diary*-what i only want is a little sign from above. kung ano ang dapat kong gawin. sino sa dalawang ito ang pipiliin ko? Marah who has always been there through thick and thin? sa hirap at sa ginhawa? or janah. whom at very first glance i know would play a very big part in my life. bkit isa lang ang puso ng tao? bakit hindi pwedeng magmahal ng dalawa??—————————————————————————- M-hon, why not… mag settle down nalang tayo?D-uhm.. why?M-why?D-i mean. diba nga may mga priorities pa tayo sa buhay? it can wait naman dibah?M-ahm. i cant wait any longer na kasi eh. parang na pi feel ko na mawawala ka sakin if hindi tayo mag settle down…D-naku.what made u think that naman? hindi ako mawawala sayo honey. i promise————————————————————————— T-jan, malungkot ka yataJ-well… i think id be having my first heartacheT-really? pero.. pano? kayo na ba? nag away ba kayo?J-no Trin, our situation is really complicated. close kami, we have fun together. pero hanggang dun lang.. we know deep within us that it could nver be us dahil may gf na xa..T-naku. mahirap nga yan. jan, papayag ka ba na ganyan ang set up nyo?papiliin mo xa. hindi pwedeng dlawa kayo sa buhay nya! ang kapal nya naman!J-trin, i think i dont have the right para gawin yun. syempre, matagal na sila ng gf nya. bago lang kami nagkakilala. do u think may laban ako? and besides, hindi naman xa nanliligaw sakin.. kaya i dont think na gawin ko dapat yun.T-janah. base from what i saw. u two guys are really getting along. kung hindi ko lang alam na may gf na xa, iisipin ko talaga na kayo na. besides, i guess. u have to clear things between u two. hindi pwedeng ganyan lang palagi ang set-up nyo.—————————————————————————- Janah’s diary*-yes. Trina is right. i am not hapy with this situation. oo nga at close kami. para pa ngang i can say that we both treat each other as bf and gf. pero if we really come to think of it, napaka unfair naman. hindi lang sakin. but to the other girl as well. i know i am halfly to be blamed. alam ko naman na comited na xa, bakit ko pa hinahayaan ang self ko na maging close sa kanya? pero.. it made me happy. thinking na nanjan lang xa. kung kailangan ko xa. pero, tama pa ba ito? hanggang kailan? hanggang maging complicated na ang lahat? hanggang malaman ng gf nya ang tungkol sa amin???—————————————————————————— Drew’s diary*-well, may tungkol ba sa amin ni janah? all i know, masaya ako sa piling nya. hindi ko yata makakaya pag mawala xa sa buhay ko. naging part na xa ng buhay ko within that little span of time.tama pa ba na ipagpatuloy ang nasimulan? o kailangan putulin ang maling naumpisahan?—————————————————————————– One day… nakita ni marah na sweet sina drew at janah M-anong ibig sabihin nito?D-honey.. nandito ka pala…. we were just talkingM-hmp. tayo na honey….. lets go home. *pero hindi papayag si marah na ganun lang yun… inabangan nya na lumabas ng bahay si janah M-so…. ur flirting with my boyfriend?J-i am notM-hmp. hindi ako tanga. at hindi ako bulag. stay away from my bf. kung ayaw mo ng away. ganyan ka ba talaga? mahilig ka ba talagang pumasok sa buhay ng may buhay?J-i dont know what ur talking about. i dont see any reason y u should react that way.M-boyfriend ko xa. close kayo! wouldnt it be enough para magalit ako sayo? ur getting his time na supposedly para sa akin. do u think hindi ko alam na palagi kayng nagkikita? hindi ako tanga. i know evrything.J-if u know everytng. den y dont u talk with him? bat hindi mo sabihin sa kanya ang nararamdaman mo? y confront me?M-dahil kung hindi ka dumating, wala sanang nangugulo sa buhay namin. ur a wrecker.J-huh? dont u think dapat u should blame urself? lalapit ba xa sakin kung kontento xa sayo?——————————————————————————- *haay, so u think that janah is brave? hindi. actually.. nacarry lang nya yun. but honestly? gusto na nyang umiyak. for being so helpless in the situation. prang feeling nya. she’s just the other girl. and that she has no right para magdemand ng something from Drew. pero dibah? minsan na xang tinanong ni Drew kung ano ba talaga ang papel nila sa isat isa? she answered "friends" right?——————————————————————————–Janah’s diary*-tanga ba ako? o manhid? y do i allow myself to be hurting like this? i dont deserve this. masyado ng masakit sa puso ko.——————————————————————————- J-kuya…?W-o janah….J-ganito pala kasakit ang masaktan…W-hmmm. mind to share?? (at sinabi ni Janah sa kuya nya)W-ic.. u know what? urs is a very complicated situation.. well, u shouldnt blame urself dahil in the first place hindi mo naman alam na mangyayari ito. second, hindi mo naman gusto na umabot sa ganito diba? u knw what… sometimes fate really gets in the way. parang masasabi natin na pinaglaruan tayo ng tadhana… but know what? wer the ones making our own destiny. hindi man natin alam na ganito ang mangyayari in the end. we know that we ourselves are responsible for making this happen. a guy has only one heart. he is supposed to love only one person right? but sometimes, no matter how hard we try to control it.. we fel inlove with another person, but it also doesnt mean that we have to leave behind the person we love first..J-kuya, its so unfair. bakit kailangang ganito? diba dapat he is suposed to choose only one?W-yun na nga eh. of course he should choose only one. kaya lang, the problem is, hindi ka naman nya niligawan diba? kaya pano mo xa papipiliin? i can understand na parang theres no need na for words.. kasi parang u feel something for each other nah,… kaya lang i guess he should also be responsible. kasi hindi naman pwede na mag expect ka lang palagi.. u deserve someone better sis. dont cry over him…J-kuya… i love himW-yes i know. maybe the prob is not whether he loves u or not. the prob is whether or not he loves you that much para iwanan nya ang gf nya…J-what should i do?W-u should talk to him of course. hindi naman pwede na ul act as if nothing has happend. or theres no prob. u have to talk over the prob and settle it…J-what if hindi ko kaya na mawala xa sa buhay ko?W-sis, in real life. u really have to go through that. its only by it na matututo ka. of course theres no easy way dealing with it. kaya lang, u have to be strong if u are to face the real world.——————————————————————————–      Janah’s diary*-tama si kuya! ang tanong, kaya ba nyang iwan ang gf nya para sakin? at kaya ko bang sabihin sa kanya to choose me over her gf? im afraid na baka hindi ako ang pipiliin nya. kasi i know that would be very hard. hindi ako sanay masaktan. i keep myself from getting hurt. pero sabi nila its only through pain that we can learn. kaya, kung hindi ako kikilos… forever would i be hurt.——————————————————————————— *after such realizations, nag lie low muna si janah. hindi muna nya pinapansin si drew. of course. drew knew all along whats the matter.of course. hindi rin naman xa manhid… ———————————————————————————- D- janah, can i talk to u?J-okey sure. what is it?D-may problema ba tayo?J-what do u think?D- kasi wer not like before. may nagbago na ba satin? hindi na ba pwedeng ibalik ang dati?J-ahm…drew, yah.. i think.. everything has change…D-why? i mean. diba okey naman tayo before?J-huh? can u not get it? wer not ok! we never were. we just keep pretending ourselves lang naman na okey tayo eh. the truth is wer not. how could it be okey? kung alam naman natin na mali ito!!D-how could it be wrong when it feels so right? mali bah? when i met u. alam kong may reason yun. we wouldnt get this far kung wla. wer special to each other jan. u know that!J-yes. i know that. pero alam ko rin that we shoudnt be seeing each other. u have ur gf drew. at kailangan ka nya. dont waste ur time on me. dahil hindi naman kita boyfriend!!!D-its not between my gf and i. its between us!!J-how could u say that? how could u pretend na ok lang ang lahat? of course kasali dito ang gf mo, dahil first and foremost gf mo xa. may pakialam xa. at naapektuhan xa!D-dapat u should go for what makes u happy. dont let other people stop u from being happy.J-so u think that i am happy with this kind of relationship?c’mon.. walng sino mang may gusto nito.. especially me. nahihirapan ako. bcause feeling ko, i am just a third party. i dont deserve this. i deserve to be loved wholly. hindi ganito na may kahati. na parang sumasalo lang ako ng tira-tira.D-jan, i love u!!J-pero mahal mo rin ang gf mo!D-yeah. pero iba iba naman ang pagmamahal ko sa inyung dalawa.J-whatever u mean. its still the same. we have to stop this. dahil hindi na tama…..D-so, u wanna give up on us????J-is there a point holding on?D-janah, mahal natin ang isat isa!!!!J-how could u say that we love each other? anong klaseng pagmamahal ang tinutukoy mo? mahal bang matatawag yan?D-i cannot leave my gf jan. may pinagsamahan kami..J-yun na nga eh. ng dahil lang sa pinagsamahan nyo.. hindi mo na xa kayang iwan? how about us? dont u care about us?D-alam ko naman na hindi ka mawawala sakin eh.J-huh? what made u say that? kaya ba parang feeling mo okey lang sakin ang situation na to? of course, hindi ok para sakin to. it never was ok. how fool are we to pretend that everything is ok??D-so? we are just prentending? everything is just an act!!J- ano ang matatawag mo sa relationship natin? u dont even tell me before that u love me.. ano ba talaga ako sa buhay mo?D-i thought u are smart. kulang pa ba ang mga signs and mga actions ko para masabi mo na mmahal kita? i thought theres no need for words. coz its all obvious.J-no! i need you to tell me. its so hanging. and its so unfair.D-so ano ba ang gusto mong mangyari?J- i want this to end.D-so ganun lang yun? is it easy for u to end just like this?J-bakit? may sense pa ba na ipagpatuloy ito? this is getting nowhere. may dapat pa ba tayong ipagpatuloy?D-ok. if u wanna end this. so be it. wag na tayong magkita. lets pretend that we dont know each other!!! *ouch* Janah’s diary*-so thats it! ganun lang ba yun kadali? how about the memories that we shared? i never thought it would be this hard. y does it have to end this way? wala na bang ibang paraan para ma settle ito? well, i know in the first place that this is wrong. making close with him is wrong. kasi alam ko that i am very vulnerable to this. i know eventually i would fall. at nangyari na kinatatakutan ko. how could i escape? is there a way to escape? oo at mahal ko xa, gusto ko xang ipaglaban. but i would be fighting for the wrong person. for the wrong situation. tama ba na ipagkait ko sa sarili ko ang kaligayahan? pero magiging maligaya kaya ako kung ipagpatuloy ko ito? i know hindi. all my life, im used in getting the best. yes, for me he’s the best. but how could he be the best if he committed the worst crime a person could ever do to me. he broke my heart. Drew’s diary*-god knows how much i wanna fight. pero i am in a crossroad. at hindi ko alam if it would be right to choose the road that i am not used to. oo at maligaya ako sa piling ni Marah. but i know i wouldnt be happy if mawawala si janah. pwede ba kayang magmahal ng dalawa? bakit hindi ako makapili. why is it so hard to choose between them? Janah’s diary*-nahihirapan xang pumili? o ayaw lang niyang pumili ng isa. kasi natatakot xa na he might end losing both. i dont know. im new to this kind of situation.isa lang ang alam ko, losing him would be so damn hard. ————————————————– J-kuya…W-yes sis?J-ayoko na talaga… ang sakit sakit nah..W-y? ano ba ang nagbabother sayo?J-dalawa kami sa puso ni Drew..W-yun na nga dibah? ang sinabi ko sayo noon. beware. alam mo naman na in the end masasaktan ka. bakit mo pa hinayaan ang sarili mo na mahulog sa kanya? u know naman na ur not sure kung nanjan ba xa para saluhin kah…J-kuya, i dont wanna deprive my self from something that i knw would make me happy..W-so ngayon happy kaba? u are hurting right?? sis, theres no use holding on to something thats hurting u…J-gusto ko mag fight kuya.. kasi baka in the end ako ang pipiliin niya.. baka in the end ma realize nya na ako ang mas kailangan nya…..W-pano kung hindi? u would be holding on to something na walang kasiguruhan.. life is full of uncertainties sis. u should atleast settle to someone na mayron kang pinanghahawakan. u know naman that theyre living in the same house. malay mo ba kung kasal na pala sila.. gusto mo bang matawag na isang mistress???J-kuya!! i can feel naman na mahal nya ako!!W-hindi yun sapat sis.. kung mahal ka talaga nya.. hindi ka nya hahayaang masaktan. hindi ka nya hahayaang ma involve sa ganito ka complicated na situation… dpat he is not hurting u. as what i can see now, nahihirapan kah. kung mahal ka talaga nya, he wouldnt allow u to be hurting like this..J-pero kuya, baka confuse lang xa… and in the end baka pumili na xa..baka nahihirapan lang xang pumili ngayon..W-at pano ka? nahihirapan ka rin. u should think for urself also sis. hindi sa lahat ng panahon xa ang intindihin mo. u know what, wala sayo ang problema . nasa kanya. kaya why would u hold on to something na hindi ka sigurado?J-hindi ko yata kaya kuya pag mawala xa sa buhay ko…W-*laugh* naku. ano ba yang mga pinagsasabi mo sis. hindi xa ang buhay mo. u have a life of ur own. ur not dependent on him!!!—————————————————- Janah’s diary*-oo nga naman. i still have my life. losing drew wouldnt mean losing my own life. kaya lang, i know that life wouldnt be the same without him.. kasi nga naman nasanay na ako na nanjan xa… is there a point holding on?? lets try to see the situation. if we look really deeper. alam naman natin na mali. kasi nga in the first place. committed na xa.. pero hindi naman cguro kasalan na umibig sa iba kahit comited na tayo.. cguro lang ang tanging kasalanan don is we want to have the new one, but we dont wanna leave the old one. so.. yun ang prob. now, si drew. hindi naman nya kayang iwan sa marah. at ayaw din nya na mawala ako sa buhay nya. me? i dont like the situation na dalawa kaming babae sa buhay ni drew, pero ayoko rin naman xang igive up. so sino ngayon ang matatawag na tanga? sino rin ang matatawag na baliw? well, seriously.. ang kinatatakutan ko lang naman… i am afraid to let go.. kasi baka nga naman, who knows. may sense pa pala to hold on.. baka in the end masayangan ako at magregret ako dahil hindi ako lumaban.. well, dalawa lang naman ang possible things pag pinagpatuloy ko ito… its either in the end nga ay ako ang pipiliin nya, at maging happy kami, or sya ang pipiliin nya and i would get hurt more and more. diba dapat bumitiw na ako? kung masaktan man ako so what? baka lalo lang akong masaktan diba pag pinagpatuloy ko pa? pero, kailangan ko ba talagang igive up xa? he’s the only guy who has changed me. so maybe theres a reason kung bakit nagkakilala kami. its not that easy to let go of him. kasi baka good things like him would never happen again… pero ang sakit. the thought na nagsasama sila sa isang bahay, the thought na parang matatawag lang ako na the "other girl", the thought na parang wala naman talaga akong right sa kanya.. its hurting me.. dapat ba talaga na maglet go? they say letting go is the only way. pero ayoko. i dont have the art of letting go.. gusto ko mag hold on lang ng mag hold on….. Drew’s diary*-hold on? is there a point holding on? as what i can see. parang ayaw na nyang lumaban. so ano pa ang saysay para lumaban ako para sa aming dalawa? ours is something na parang walang kasiguruhan. dahil narin cguro very complicated ang situation namin.. pero at least man lang cguro dapat ma feel ko na gusto pa nyang mag hold on.. dahil gusto kong ma feel na kailangan nya ako sa buhay nya….. Janah’s diary…-he is the guy.. kaya i guess dapat he should make the first move. hindi naman cguro pwede na ako nalang ang mag exert ng efort para ma feel nya na hindi ko gusto na mawala xa… maybe we shouldnt blame ourselves after all. baka we should just blame the situation. kasi, hindi naman namin ginusto ito diba? hindi rin naman cguro pwede na kung hindi namin ipagpatuloy, then we would be friends.. kasi, we cant pretend naman… ano ba talaga ako totoo? ano ba talaga ang aasahan ko?? Drew’s diary-ang totoo? hindi ko rin alam. hindi ko alam. basta ang alam ko… gusto ko na nasa akin silang dalawa. i dont wanna give up either of the two. kasi alam kong mahirap. alam ko na masasaktan ako in the end. Janah’s diary*-mahirap? mahirap pumili? bakit? mas madali ba ang magmahal ng dalawa kaysa pumili ng isa? cguro nga.. pero napa ka unfair naman. in life kasi cguro dapat we have to make choices. hindi naman pwede na habang buhay magiging ganito.. kung hindi nya kayang pumili ng isa? bakit ipagpatuloy pa tama nga talaga si kuya.. why prolong the agony? kung alam ko naman na sooner or later id be hurt talaga.. well pains make us stronger. pero hindi dapat sa ganitong klaseng situation.. its so emotionally draining, u know. dapat… dapat.. i must choose right.. season 2nag usap sina marah and drew M-hon, may problema ba tayo? is everything alright?D-ahm, i would be a liar kung sasabihin ko na okey tayo.. wer not ok marahM-Then lets talk about the problem, wag nating hayaan na lumaki pa ito..D-maiintindihan mo ba ako?M-pipilitin ko drew.. dahil mahal na mahal kita…D-marah… evrything has change..since dumating si janah… hindi na tayo tulad ng dati….M-ahm.. pwede bang u tell me directly? ano ba ang gusto mong sabihin?D-mahal kita mar.. pero,…. mahal..ko rin.. si janah..M-hah? pano nangyari yun.. hindi ka pwedeng magmahal ng dalawa drew. pano mo xa minahal? pano nagsimula ang lahat?D-yun na nge eh. it just happend. nahulog ang loob ko sa kanya.. pero maniwala ka marah. mahal kita. mahal din kita!m-SINO ba nag mas mahal mo sa aming dalawa?D-hindi ko alam mar. ang alam ko lang, mahal kita. mahal ko rin si janah.M-hindi pwede yan drew. u have to choose. ako? o sya? hindi pwedeng dalawa kami sa buhay mo..D-akala ko ba maiinitindihan mo?M-oo pinipilit kong intindihin.. pero this is too much to bear. dalawa kami. hindi mo alam kung sino ang mas matimbang sa aming dalawa? wag kang selfish drew. kung xa ang mas mahal mo, maiintindihan ko naman eh. just dont let me hope. kung alam mong wala ng patutungahan ang relation natin. tell me right away. wag na nating patagalin pa ito…D-marah wait. mahal kita. mahal na mahal kita. ayokong mawala ka sakin.M-pano si janah? diba mahal mo rin xa? hindi pwedeng tayong tatlo drew. u know better than that.maging responsible ka naman. i can understand drew. just let me know where i really stand…… Drew’s diary*-hindi ko maaatim na mawala si marah sa buhay ko. kung mayron mang isang tao na nakakaintindi talaga sakin, yun ay wlang iba kundi c marah. mahal na mahal ko sya. ilang taon na ba kaming nagsama? hindi pwedeng baliwalain yun. hindi ko makakaya na mawala xa sa buhay ko. pero there came janah. iba xa. she caught my attention. nahulog narin ang loob ko sa kanya. gusto ko nandito lang xa palagi sa buhay ko. ayoko ring mawala xa. i am becoming selfish, yes. pero.. mali ba ang magmahal? nagmahal lang naman ako.. mali ba ito??? janah’ diary*-oo mali ito. ilang beses ko nabang pilit sinasabi sa sarili ko. i could find another man better than him. hindi ako dapat manghinayang sa kanya… at saka… huli na kasi ang lahat.. may nakalaan na para sa kanya bago paman kami nagkakilala…..——————————————– nag usap sina Janah at Marah M-hi.. can we talk? im sorry if i acted so rude nung last nating pagkikita.. i was just not in the mood…J-its ok.. ;-) i understand.. ano ba ang pag uusapan natin?M-tungkol kay drew.. janah.. i know and i understand the situation.. gustuhin ko mang magalit sayo.. hindi ko magawa.. dahil parepareho lang naman tayo na parang pinaglalaruan ng sitwasyon.. i understand na mahal mo na si drew. mahal ka rin nya, janah. pero mahal din nya ako….J-hindi ko naman inaagaw sayo si Drew, eh. alam ko naman in the first place na sayo talaga sya.. kasi kayo naman ang magkasama bago pa kami nagkakilala.. marami na kayong pinagsamahan.. hindi ko na mareplace yun.. alam kong mas may lamang ka sakin.. dahil mas kilala nyo na ang isat isa…M-janah.. i dont wanna be unfair to u.. alam ko naman na hindi naman basehan ang length of time… oo nga at matagal na kami.. pero pano kung mas maligaya naman xa sa piling mo? well, tama ka nga when u said na hindi naman xa pupunta sayo o makikipag close sayo… kung contented na xa sakin.. maybe nga after all, i wasnt able to give him all i could give.. kasi hindi sana mangyayari ito diba?J-no marah. hindi ko naman inexpect na aabot sa ganito.. at first.. i thought that we would just be friends, at yun lang.. pero dumating na sa time na iba na.. i wasnt able to be prepared for this. kaya parang naaapektuhan din ako.. pero i know the situation very well, hindi ako nang aagaw.. infact… sayo xa.. sayung-sayo xa marah…M-janah mahal na mahal ko si drew. i love him even to the point that i can let him go para puntahan kung sino ang makakapagligaya sa kanya. i am after his happiness. pano kung hindi na pala xa maligaya sakin? pano kung ikaw na pala ang happiness nya?J-i doubt that marah. kasi alam ko naman na mahal na mahal ka nya. enough para hindi ka nya iwan..u dont have to worry naman eh.. kasi sooner or later aalis na naman kami.. hindi na tayo magkikita.. at matatahimik narin ang buhay nyung dalawa…——————————————– janah’s diary…-oo, aalis na naman kami.. cguro nga thats the best way para maka move on ako.. kasi kung patuloy akong titira dito.. mas magiging complicated ang lahat… mabait naman pala si marah. kaya naman pala hindi xa kayang iwan ni drew. kasi napaka understanding nya.. at napaka open pa sa feelings nya.. ako? kailan ba ako magiging open sa feelings ko? pano ko ba masasabi kay drew how i really wanted to fight for us??? —————————————– T-u know what jan, i guess, u should tell drew how u really feel.. kasi unfair din naman sa kanya.. he ought to know, u know. may karapatan naman xang malaman. dont be a person who has to look back and regret. we only live once jan. we should live to the fullest. hindi ka matatahimik if hindi mo madisclose ang mga nagbabother sayo.. tell him. after all, kailangan nyo talagang mag usap bago kayo umalis. it would be so unfair kung hahayaan nyo nalang na ganun ang situation.. for old time’s sake jan. for the best.. mag usap kayo……. J-aalis na kami bukas……D-may magagawa pa ba ako para pigilan ka?J-actually, buo na ang mind ko.. ang theres no sense naman living here… baka masyado lang maging complicated ang situation…D-janah, pano kung tayo pala ang para sa isat isa?J-bakit mo naman natanong yan? hhhmm.. ni hindi ka nga makapili saming dalawa eh. how could u say na tayo pala ang para sa isat isa..D-jan just please try to understand the situation…J-bakit what do u think am i doing? all my life… nag understand lang ako sa situation. i know this is so unfair. pero inintindi parin kita. hoping na baka naguguluhan ka lang. at makakapili karin sooner. pero hindi! sinabi mo narin sakin na mahal mo kaming dalawa. drew. ayoko ng may kahati. gusto ko mahalin mo ako ng buong-buo. ng walang kulang. pero magagawa mo ba yun? may isa rin namang pinangakuan mo nga pag-ibig. kaya ako nalang ang aalis. para maging maligaya kayung dalawa…….D-janah. hindi ako magiging maligaya kung wala ka…J-hindi rin ako magiging maligaya kung dalawa kami drew. nanjan naman xa. u wer once a happy couple. dont mind me. kaya ko naman ang sarili ko…D-ganun lang ba kadali para sayo ang magkahiwalay tayo?J-mahal kita drew. at hindi. hindi madali ang mawala ka. pero i think this is for the best. ayoko ng lumaban pa. ayoko nang lumaban ng walang kasiguruhan. i might be fighting for nothing…. bakit hindi ka makapili drew? dahil ba natatakot ka na magkamali sa pagpili? i think in love.. u have to take risk. eh ano kung magkamali ka? after all, u tried naman diba? alam mo.. gusto kong ako ang piliin mo.. at iwan mo nalang xa.. pero alam ko naman na hindi posible yun. dahil alam ko na mahal na mahal mo xa… at baka nga isang panakip butas lang ako sa buhay mo.. dahil alam ko naman that u wouldnt ever choose me over her. kaya whats the use pa para manatili ako dito? hindi ko na kayang makikita pa kayong dalawa…D-iba ka janah. iba rin si marah. mahal ko kayong dalawa in different levels. kaya i couldnt say na sana dalawa ang puso ko. iba iba naman ang klase ng pagmamahal ko sa inyung dalawa..J- i have tried to understand u drew. but this situation is really weird. i guess wala namang matinong babae na papayag sa ganitong klaseng situation.. marami pa namang mga lalaki.. makakahanap pa naman ako… cguro nga we just met to learn lessons from each other… hindi rin naman kita kailanman kalilimutan…D-janah hindi madali para sakin ang mawala kah…J-dont make it even harder to me drew. coz u dont have even a single cue on how much im hurting. uve caused me my very first heartache.. my first everything.. akala mo ba madali lang para sakin ang iwan ka? sa ganitong situation? hindi! as much as posible gusto ko na nasa akin ka palagi.. kaya lang i cant deny to myself na aside from me.. may isa pang babae sa buhay mo.. ayoko drew. i dont deserve this kind of treatment… i deserve better. kaya wag mo ng gawing mahirap ang pag alis ko. dahil bka hindi ko makayanan…….. —————————————————————————–W- jan ok kalang ba?J- hindi kuya…W- makakalimutan mo rin namn xa sis.. marami ka pa namang mamimeet na mga guys. far better than him. kaya wag kang manghinayang. just think of it as a growing up process.. time heals all the wounds naman eh…J- kuya.. ang sakin lang namn… parang unfair din para sa kanya.. kasi nga diba dapat hindi ko xa iwan nga basta2 nalang? i know he is really confuse.. baka ano pang mangyari sa kanya.. dapat diba kuya i understand him nalng?W- no sis. i guess, u have done enough. dapat he must also do his part. hindi talaga tama na mahalin ka nya, at magmahal din xa ng iba.. kasi napaka unfair nun. and hindi ka dapat maawa sa kanya sis. in the first place dapat pa nga magalit ka eh. kasi parang pinaasa ka nya for something na hindi naman nya kayang panindigan. hindi na sna xa nakipagclose sayo in the first place. hindi na sana nya hinayaan na mahulog ng tuluyan ang loob mo sa kanya.. kung alam naman nya na masasaktan ka lang nya in the end…J- kuya pano kung ako naman talaga ang gusto nya? at naaawa lang xa kay marah?W- it doesnt seem to be that way sis. kasi kung mas mahal ka nya. hindi ka nya hahayaang umalis ng ganun2 nalang.. yes he would be hurting marah. pero ksama naman yun eh of being inlove. lahat naman tayo dumadaan sa process ng heartache. kaya i dont think mahal ka nya talaga sis. u have to stop hoping.. masasaktan ka lang in the end….J- pano kung magsisi ako sa huli kuya? na hindi ako lumaban?W- lumaban ka naman sis eh. its just that u couldnt fight enough kasi nga alam mo naman ang situation. atsaka, y wuld u even fight? what for? pinaglaban ka ba niya? i understand sis these things are novel to u.. kaya cguro masyado kang naapektuhan. know wht? kung walang dapat ipaglaban.. dont fight. magsasayang ka lang ng oras sis. dont waste ur time hoping and regreting. dont look at the past and cry.. pains could make u strong kaya its okey to cry… wag ka rin msyado mag isip. if he really loves u gagawa naman xa ng paraan… pero just dont expect sis… dahil mahirap…————————————————————————— janah’s diary*-many times, gusto kong mag contact kay drew. ask him how he is nah. kaya lang, hindi na naman xa nageexert ng effort to ask me how i am too. i guess nakalimutan na nya ako.. baka nga masayang masaya na sila ni marah. well, kung ganun, baka nga im jz hoping for nothing. its been 6 months already, kaso hindi parin xa nawala sa isipan ko. how could someone mean this much to me? hindi naman masyadong matagal ang pinagsamahan namin, pero still xa parin palagi ang iniisip ko… sina trina and kayen, may mga bf na, ako nalang ang naiwan.. well, alam ko naman na mali na icompare ko ang sarili ko sa kanila… well malas nga cguro ako sa pag ibig. kasi i grew up hating guys. nakaroon na naman cguro ako ng reason to hate them more…. —————————————————time came na nakilala ni janah si hanielintroducing *haniel* nag aral si janah ng masters degree. at don nya nakilala si haniel. they were classmates. katulad ni janah, may past din si haniel na pilit nyang kinakalimutan……. h-jan, why dont we get to know each other? after all baka magclick tayo, even as friends..J-naku haniel, as much as possible, ayoko na sana munang makipag close sa mga guys, kasi hindi ko parin makalimutan ang past ko eh.. ayoko na namang masaktan…H-hay naku janah. lahat naman tayo ayaw masaktan eh. past is past din naman… besides, kung patuloy kang ganyan, u wouldnt be happy, kasi palagi ka nalang nahahunted by ur past… hindi naman ibig sabihin na kung nsaktan ka noon, wala ka ng karapatang lumigaya ngayon, just move on and give ur self a chance…… janah’s diary-close na kami ni haniel, well i am still worried. baka kasi maulit lang ang kahapon. well tama nga naman xa.. dapat mag move on na ako. pero how could i move on when i havent let him go? oo, until now, i am still hoping na someday somehow magkita kami, at marealize nya na mas matimbang pala ako sa kanya.. but why do i give so much hope to myself? ni tawag o text nga hindi nya magawa…… drew’s diary….-i am still missing janah. kaya lang i have to restrict myself from having any contact with her dahil alam ko naman na masyado pang complicated ang lahat. gusto ko rin xang bigyan ng time and space para makapag isip. kung ano ba talaga ang nararamdaman nya para sakin. baka kasi infatuation lang ang nararamdaman nya para sakin… janah’s diary..-kung infatuation lang ba itong nararamdaman ko for drew? kung infatuation lang ito, di sana im not hurting like hell. this is love lord. a kind of love na hindi nya kayang tumbasan.! ————————————————————hindi nag court si haniel kay janah, they remain friends. infact, bestfriends. akala ng lahat na mag bf sila….all along, may mga sources naman si drew. alam nya kung nasaan si janah. at alam din nya ang mga events na nangyayari sa kanya. he heard na mag bf na sina janah at haniel dahil yun naman ang sabi2 ng mga tao…. kahit na they are plain friends…. drew’s diary..-so, she finally moved on.. while ako nahihirapan, may bf na pala xa. how fool am i in hoping na someday may pag.asa parin kaming dalawa… ****marah and drew’s relationship is getting nowhere. kasi nga hindi na nila maramdaman na okey pa ang flow ng lahat. napagod na rin sa marah sa kaaunderstand kay drew. at nakakita narin xa ng ibang lalaki at lumipat na xa ng ibang apartment.. it so happend na cousin pala ni haniel ang new guy ni marah. nakita ni janah na sweet sina marah at ang cousin ni haniel….. janah’s diary..-oh my god! is it true what i saw? may bago ng bf si marah? at pano naman si drew???? drew’s diary…-well, ako? heto. buhay pa naman. ano ba itong nangyayari sakin? wala na yatang kabuluhan itong buhay ko. kahit sino sinong babae nalang ang nakakasama ko. one night stand. para makalimutan ko ang lahat… para makalimutan ko pansamantala ang mga sakit na nadarama ko.. bakit hindi ako pumili noon? bakit naging duwag ako? ngayon. silang dalawa na ang nawala sakin. naging maramot ba ako sa pag ibig? kaya ako nakarma ng ganito??? ****isang araw, nag propose si haniel kay janah.H- jan, i know this is new to us. pero parang i cant pretend na kasi na plain friendship lang ang nararamdaman ko for u. i have loved u ever since nakilala natin ang isat isa. we will be a perfect couple jan. hindi tayo nag aaway. magkasundo tayo sa lahat ng bagay. formality nalang ang kulang sa tin..J-ahm. haniel, just let me think about it. and aayusin ko muna ang mga bagay2 about me.. para kung sakaling tanggapin ko man ang proposal mo… okey na ang lahat at wala ng bumabagabag sakin….H-im willing to wait jan…… ******pinuntahan ni janah sa apartment si drew-at nakita nya doon na parang wala ng nag aalaga sa apartment. parang abandoned na ito.. at nakita nya sa isang sulok si drew na umiiyak.-parang pinipiga ang puso nya watching drew cry. J-drew???D-janah….J-drew wat happend?D-im sorry jan.. im sorryJ-wala na yun sakin drew. now tell me, ano ba ang nangyari?D-simula nung umalis ka jan, my life was a mess. it was never the same again. naging magulo na ang buhay ko.. hindi ako matahimik. napabayaan ko na ang life ko jan.. at napabayaan ko rin si marah. kaya umalis sya at iniwan nya ako… gustuhin ko man na kontakin ka, di ko magawa dahil gusto kong bigyan ka nga time and space. pero isang araw, nalaman ko nalang na may bf ka na pala…. kaya parang wala ng saysay ang buhay ko… kung sino sinong babae ang nakakasama ko para lang makalimutan ko ang sakit… paiba iba nga babae… hanggang……J-ano?D-may std ako janah… i have just found out…. napaka gago ko. hindi ko man lang inisip ang future ko. ngayon, may mukha pa ba akong ihaharap sayo? wala na akong maipagmamalaki sayo janah. bibigyan lang kita ng sakit kung ganun.. mahal kita janah. pero hindi ko kaya na madamay ka sa kapabayaan ko.. malaya ka na janah… pabayaan mo na ako…..J-may gamot pa naman sa std diba?D-aalis ako ng bansa jan. don na ako titira.. at doon ako magbabagong buhay… salamat sa lahat.. ayokong madamay kah.. dahil marami ng sakit ang naidulot ko sayo. ayoko ng madagdagan pa yun…J-magiging okey ang lahat drew. il pray for u… talaga bang kaya mo? at hindi mo kailangan ng tulong?D-okey lang jan. pinasukan ko to. i should know how to get out. at saka, u have a life of ur own na jan.. dont mind about me….. i will be okey…… Janah’s diary*-so i have finally moved on…its just so sad that it has to end this way. masakit sya oo. at first. pero eventually nawawala rin naman ang sakit. parang nasasayangan lang din ako. pero theres no use para mag regret. nangyari na ang nangyari. maybe drew and i were not for each other after all. marami rin naman akong natutunan. at first, dapat hindi makipag close sa isang guy na taken na. kasi in the end, masasaktan rin lang tayo. dapat mag mahal lang ng isa. kasi we have only one heart naman diba? and dont fight for something not worth fighting for… tama nga naman. kailangan masaktan. para may matutunan.ouch. it really hurts at first. pero now? im more than ok. masaya ako sa piling ni haniel… drew’s diary…-if i could only turn back time.. pero wala ng saysay para mag regret. i cant do anything with the past. ang alam ko, i still have my future. oo at marami akong mga alaala na naiwan sa pilipinas. mga alaala na nakakapagpasaya sakin during times na nalulungkot ako… pero marami rin naman akong natutunan. love should be not selfish. kailangan alam ko kung ano talaga ang gusto ko. loving two women at the same time is a nightmare. hindi talaga nangyayari sa totoong buhay. nobody knew kung sino talaga ang mas mahal ko.. y? kasi even me hindi ko rin alam. cguro nga, i should need a counselor. kasi hindi ko alam kung ano talaga ang makakapagpaligaya sakin. well we nver know what we have had unless its gone. pero maligaya na naman ako ngayon.. things are back in their proper places. Haniel’s diary*-alam ko na ang past. janah told me.. well, i am glad. kasi ok na ang lahat. we learn from our mistakes.. what hapend in the past belongs in the past. and the best is yet to come…..;-)     The Art of Letting Go.. (season 3): MAYBE THIS TIME two old friendsmeet againwearin all the facestalk about the places they’d been two old sweetheartsfell apartsomewhere long agohow i didnt know someday they meet againand now he need her more and reminisce andmaybe this timeit will be love and they’ll findmaybe now they can be more than just friends she’s back in his lifeand it feels so rightmaybe this timelove won in it’s the same old feelingback againit’s the one that they had back whenthey were too young not knowing love was real but somehow some thingsnever changedand even time has cooled the flameit’s burning even brighter than it did before and now they had the chanceand if they take itmaybe this timeit will be love and they’ll findmaybe now they can be more than just friends she’s back in his lifeand it feels so rightmaybe this timelove won in she’s smiling like she used to smile from way back thenhe’s feelin like the he used to feel way back whenthey tried to get inwaiting for this magic moment maybe this timeit will be love and they’ll findmaybe now they can be more than just friends she’s back in his lifeand it feels so rightmaybe this time, maybe this time, MAYBE THIS TIMElove won in -season 3- theme song (MAYBE THIS TIME)words from the author: Life is a game we play. We lose or win, the game lies in our hands. Life requires us to jump. Everyday is a risk we take. If we want something to happen, we can always make it happen, we just have to believe in ourselves. Love is one aspect of life that we really need to fight for. Love is indeed a mysterious thing we need to unfold…welcome to season 3 of "the art of letting go" with a very special theme: MAYBE THIS TIME. janah’s diary- oo at happy nah ako, i have haniel beside me, pero sometimes i asked myself.. am i really trully happy? well, for the past two years, si drew parin naman ang nasa isip ko, no matter how hard i deny it, hindi ko parin xa magawang makalimutan totally. god! its been almost 2 years, ni i dont know nga if buhay pa xa, pero bakit naapaketuhan parin ako sa kanya? drew’s diary- yep. its been 2 years alreadty. god. i so goddamn miss her.. magkikita pa kaya kami?? h-hon, is there something wrong? parang something’s bothering u ahj-nope, im okey. pagod lang cguro ako sa workh-hon, u should unwind a bit, remember.. wer getting married in about 2 weeks, baka magkasakit ka pa sa wedding day natinj-hon, ahm would it be okey? lalabas muna ako kasi i need to meet a friendh-ha? hon,… its getting late na, bukas nalang yanj-hindi pwede eh, ngayun lang nagka time ang friend koh-sasamahan kitaj-no hon, dont bother,… kaya ko naman eh, dito ka nalang…. —-the truth is, pupunta sa bar si janah, para maglabas ng sama ng loob, and to forget for the meantime all her problems, shes not that type, pero this time she has no other outlet. shes getting married in about 2 weeks to a man she’s not sure she would want to spend her whole life with……. —-without her knowing it, nandon din pala si drew…. and then it happend.. something happend between them… j-nasan ako?d-hi….j-drew? ha? bat ako nandito? wer are we?d-nandito tayo sa pad ko..j-huh? gosh! anong ginawa mo sakin?d-i dont know too… wer both drunk janah.. pero one thing im sure of.. we made love, and it was the best thing that has ever happened to me………j- how could u do this? gosh!!!… i dont kn0w… (confious)….god!d-arent u happy to see me? kahit ako nga.. i wasnt expecting this, but i am glad it happend, gosh! janah, i really miss u.. im so glad to see u again… (hugs her)j- (tried to get out from the hug) drew.. listen.. everything is different now, and this? i dont know what would happen after this.. this shouldnt happen..!!!!d-i’ll marry you janah..j-huh? yun na nga eh, im getting married in two weeks.. this is a nightmare!! (suddenly walks out) janah’s diary–gosh!! ano ang nangyari? something happend to us!! we made love~~~ yes it’s a very wonderful thing, but god. pls, im about to marry haniel.. wht must i do? drew’s diary— god. its so damn good to see her.. all the while pala, i still love her. hindi ako nagkamali in acknowledging my feelings for her. but!! ito lang pala ang mababalitaan ko, shes about to get married.. wala na ba talaga kaming pag-asa?? ~~~~~ pag-uwi ni janah sa kanila~~~ h-hon, gosh, im glad umuwi kana, kung saan saan kita hinanap!!! bakit ba naka off ang cell mo? i told u not to keep ur fone unattended!!! halos mabaliw na ko kakahanap sayo!!j-sori, naglowbatt kasi ang fone ko ehh- okey, but next time hon plz look for a way to contact me ok? hindi naman ako galit.. ahm just so worried!!!! my god.. (hugs) –mas lalong na guilty si janah sa actuations ni haniel. god. he is so kind. paano ba nya makakayang saktan ang isang tulad ni haniel? who has always been there to understand her specially on times that even her cant understand herself… –one day, janah got an unexpected visitor in her office– J-hey. anong ginagawa mo dito?d-im visiting u, masama ba?j-gosh! wala akong sakit para bisitahin mo! and, ano nalng ang iisipin ng fiance’ ko? stop seeing me drew!!!!d-hindi ka parin nagbabago janah. u still cant fight for urself! bat ba ganyan ka? wala naba talaga akong halaga sayo??j_(offguard)– its over drew. i thought everything between us has been closed. ayoko ng buksan ang kahapon. we have different lives now!!!!d-something happened between us! wala lang ba yun sayo? mahalaga yun sakin janah!!!j-so,? ur here just because something happend between us??d-dont be narrow minded janah.. if u might wanna know, mahal parin kita, hindi ka nawala sa puso ko in the past two years…j-bakit ngayon ka lang? bakit hindi mo ako pinaglaban noon??d-naduwag ako janah.. and i need u to also fight for me.. i know i was so weak then, and it took me 2 years para ma realize yun, pero nandito na ako, its not yet too late to start things over..j-ur insane! committed na ako drew.. i cant just break it dahil dumating kana, i am a woman with a word drew.. settled na ang lahat sa amin ni haniel..d-but do u love him?j-who are u to ask me that? does it matter? i belong to him drew, xa ang sumalo sakin the time na parang bumagsak na ang mundo sakin, he deserves me..d-ur not inlove with him janah. ginagawa mo lang xang panakip butas! that is wrong! u shoulnt marry a guy unless ur 100% sure na xa na talaga.. at saka pano kung magbunga ang nangyari satin? what would u do??/j-i’ll cross the bridge when i get there drew. sa ngayon, i am busy with the preparation of my wedding.. if gusto mo, i’ll send u an invitation..!!!d-dont be such a hypocrite janah.. i know u still love me~!! (and he started to kiss her)) –suddenly pumunta pala si haniel sa office ni janah and he saw the scene.. h-janah!!!!!!j and d- shocked.. (and bago pa maka react ang lahat, lumabas ng office si drew)j-hon, hon im sorry,… he started it, i tried to get off him.. walang ibig sabihin yun..h-janah,let’s talk… h-so, tell me.. xa ba ang dahilan kung bakit parang somethings wrong with u??j-haniel……h-i can understand naman janah eh, kaya lang wag mo naman sana akong gawing tanga~!!!! hindi mo na sana pinaabot pa ng ganito if in the end sasaktan mo rin lang naman ako!! hindi ako laruan janah!! dont try to play with my feelings dahil alam mo na mahal na mahal kita!!!j-drew, hindi kita pinaglalaruan!! it just so happen na nagkita kami ulit.. and… and…h-and u realize u still love him??? god. janah! akala ko ba ur over him!! bakit ngayon ur still affected?/? ganyan mo ba talaga xa kamahal/?? ano bang nasa kanya janah??? na wala sakin??? tell me!!!!!j-its not about u haniel,… its about me.. hindi ko alam… u know how much i tried to forget him.. pero, iba pala pag makita mo na talaga, if he’s right there infront of u..h-shut up jan! let’s end this.. !!!!j-(crying) ~~~hindi na alam ni janah kung saan xa pupunta.. hindi rin nya alam kung matutuloy pa ang wedding nila ni haniel, she doesnt know how the people would say about her.. at hindi nya rin alam kung ano ba talaga ang dapat nyang gawin… (to be continued)