I've left hospital and I've been trying to avoid school. I've been pretending to be sick. I went on facebook one day and I got over 100 notifications. I read through the posts that were on my timeline. I cried, some of them said:
Haha I heard you were in hospital, we rather you stay there.
Go die.
Don't come back we don't want you here.
Move back from where you came from.
Never come back,ever!!!
That was not bad, there was more that made me cut again.
I promised my brother I wouldn't, but I had to.
No one wanted me, no one.
I was forced to go to school.
I avoided everyone.
At lunch I went into the girls bathroom,it was deserted so I went into one of the cubicles,locked the door. I sat on the ledge.I took my blade, clutched it in my hand and cried.
I could hear all these words going round in my head.
Fat,ugly,worthless,loser these were a few words that they called me. I got off the ledge I felt fat so I got my two fingers, leaned against the toilet, put my fingers down my throat. I made myself throw up. It helps me loose weight.
