a whole new story// a Colby brock fan fic

welcome home

C: APRIL!?!?!? what? what are you? why are you here? i thought you left.

A: im back.

C: umm oh shit sorry come on in.

A: thanks 

C: are you staying in LA or are you going back?

A: I'm staying i will be living with jake till i find an apartment

(they moved out of the trap house)

C: hm

A: what?

C: what do mean

A: that little hum

C: oh it was nothing.

A: oh okay 

we talked for what seemed like days until i had to head home.

A: i got to get to jake.

C: no stay with me. you can sleep in my bed.

A: colby i already told jake i would be home before 10:00

C: okay but let me walk you there 

A: okay come on

C: im really glad your back.

A: oh \

C: is everything okay

A: what? Yes everything fine 

i lied everything is not okay i havent eaten in three weeks don't know how im not dead but what the fuck ever i have scars all over my body some old some fresh for this morning.

i hope he doesn't notice though. because then everyone will know and i don't want everyone to baby me again because i know from experience that never helps. in fact, i makes everything worse. when everyone who fucks has ever even looked at you and youve never meet them tells you its alright even your friend it just makes everything not alright. and i know everyone says sourond yourself with people you love and people who make you happy but that never works.

C: bye.

A: bye 

C: wait April

A: yes colby 

C: i love you 

i stood there frozen what do i do he just said i love you and i know i love him back but why me im so worthless stupid dumb and ugly i have no personality why? how could he love me?

C: im sorry too soon

A: bye colby

i walked into Jake's apartment and told him everything he said that he just really missed me.

J: hey whats that on your arm

oh no 

A: what 

J: why

he looked at me with worried eyes

A: ima go stay with colby by

i walked to Colby door and knocked when he opened you could smell the alcohol radiating off of him. and i was strong. 

A: can i stay with you please

he looked at me and move out of the way so i could come in. i saw empty bottles everywhere. i looked at him with eyes full of worry. 

A: colby i wanna talk.

tears started streaming down his face and i couldn't help but feel sorry for him.

A: colby i should have told you this a while ago and im sorry that i didn't say shit when you said that you loved me i was scared.

C: and what you don't think i was sacred when i said it. April im scared im scared okay im scared that you walk out to go back home and never return im scared that if i really give you my love you'll walk away nothing stop you from doing before! you never spoke to me after you left. you even talked to Brennen but not me.

A: because colby im in love with you and i tried to push the feelings that i had for you away but i didn't work and i was afraid that when i spoke to you again i would be too afraid and i would say shit that i could never take back.

C: what do you mean.

A: I LOVE  YOU OKAY I ADMIT IT IM IN LOVE WITH YOU COLBY!

at this point, tears were streaming down my face and colby just stood there in shock i was done i was ready to show him how crazy i can get.

A: i have loved you for years and years on end every time you hurt me i came running back because i love you. WAS I WORTH IT? huh colby was i worth your time was i worth any of it?

C: yes of course you were but i can be with at stupid clingy bitch so when you left i was happy. i felt so relieved.

 I was beyond done with getting hurt by people like him i was ready to show him what i was doing to myself because of his words. i removed my sweater and then my shirt and stood there tears started to well up in his eye.

A: give up the act don't cry you don't care.

C: why?

A: you...

C: i.... im sorry that you feel like this.

A: like what colby? depressed, suicidal, worthless, stupid, ugly and fat.

C: umm yeah that.

A: its because of you not trying to make you feel guilty its bacuse of you and bl.... never mind

C: blake wait what did he do?

A: he did nothing.

C: your lying. WHAT DI...

A: HE RAPED ME!

C: why didn't you tell me?

A: i don't know. 

 i couldn't stop crying soon i stop breathing i kept gasping for air.

i was having an anxiety attack

C: hey. April oh shit umm breath i get your inhaler

he ran to jakes apartment got my inhaler and ran back with jake following him. by the time he got back knowing jake would come back with him i put on one of colbys hoddies and balled up in the corner.

C: hey im here.

when i calmed down jake went back to his aparment and me and colby watched a movie i got cold so i layed against colbys warm bodie. i guess he noticed i was cold because he put a blanket over me and then he began to speak.

C: april?

A: yes?

C: will you be my girlfriend?

A: yes!