Broken hearts club

Little did I know

Little did I know that as time passed by, the thought of you and I would slowly cease to make me smile and my heart to go into overdrive

Little did I know beholding you again wouldnt have an effect on me.

Little did I know your name wouldnt make me smile.

All I sought was to be your escape and little did I know it would be hard to escape you.

But I did, didnt I?

I succeeded without you, didnt I?

Once upon a time I believed my heart to be clouded with the emotion we call love.

The utmost abused word.

With no uncertainty I miss your smile, I miss your laugh.

I miss what we used to be, I pleaded for just a single moment with you, but then again I dont live that reality any longer.

In addition the desire to hold you one more time slithered away from me.

And with my shattered heart I beheld my life without you.

Self-centered it may make me but I remember how much I sought you to be with me, just me.

I vexed hard to forget you, but you are part of me and will be forever and nothing will change the past, but I will control my future.

It was tough to deal with the actuality that my heart was just lost without you, sealed my eyes and visualized your mesmerizing eyes.

The similar eyes that young me wouldve loved to wake up to every morning.

The same eyes haunted me till I decided enough was enough.

My heart is just missing you.

You didnt recognize how much you meant to me.

How much I needed you.

And I didnt know that the craving I had for you would be the death of me, ALMOST.