My first and last everything

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He said biting his lip and looking me straight in the eye but the longer we look into each other's eyes, the more I thought he was just going to rip my clothes off and have me right there and then. He whispered in my ear "If you want me, all you have to do is tell me and I'm all yours". Damn if he knew what that was doing to my body. He looks me in the eye and smirks because he clearly knows what he's doing but I'm not gonna be like his conquests. "I don't want to be like all the other girls you're had sex with. I want to have sex with someone that actually wants it to mean something as much as it does for me but you clearly think I'm easy.". "No hey of course not never. I would never think of you in that way, I actually care about you and you mean so much to me but if you're talking about what happened that time at the club, yeah I have a past where it's just been one night stands but you are different. You are someone who is kind-hearted, sweet and you care so much at people and I have never met someone like you. All the girls I've meant only you use me and care about money and sex. I trust you so much even though I've only known you for such a short time but you've have me such kindness that I havent had for so long and I'm so grateful. I only want to be with you for the amount of time you'll have me, do you feel the same?" He looked at me and honestly, I do feel the same. All I want is him. All I need is him with me forever I don't care if we've known each other for such a short time. I'm falling for him. "Of course I do. But I need to be sure I mean it's... my first time." I said feeling so embarrassed so I look away from him. He caresses my cheek and turns me towards him. "I will wait for as long as you want me to because I wanna prove to you that I'm serious about and that you are worth the wait baby." He gave me a long kiss that just gave me butterflies. "Maybe you'd feel comfortable if I told you something that I've never told anyone before. I'm scared to be in a relationship because of well... My parents. They were high school sweethearts and had been together for years but then my mother was pregnant with me and their relationship started to crack. My dad had been cheating on my mum with his assistant for months and he didn't care. He wasn't really around when I was a kid but one night, my mum got tired of having to deal with the stress of paying bills and looking after me all by herself so she went to go to see my father at his workplace but she caught him between his assistant's legs. He didn't even apologise and it hurt her so much, she became sick and was in the hospital for months and months. Life became worse when she found out that my dad had got his assistant pregnant with my half sister Mia but he forced his assistant to give her up for adoption. My mum wouldn't allow it so she took her in as her own as much as it hurt, she was still family but my dad never cared about us or even Mia when she was born. My mum recently got her life on track and is more happier than she ever used to be but he was her first love and he ruined her. All he does is send checks from random places and she still cries everytime she sees one. Grayson and I work hard to make sure the club stays successful so I can provide for our family because I don't ever want my mother to worry like that again. Mia doesn't deserve it either, she's a good and really smart kid who really struggles because she missed out on having a father but she's so strong she just doesn't let it affect her." He just looked down and wouldn't look at me for minute all I could do was be there for him and hold him in my arms. I can't believe he went through that, things like that you could really fuck up a person so I understand why he's scared to let go and start something with someone he barely knows but he's taking a chance on me and that means a lot. "You are so strong too and honestly your family must love you so much for everything you have done for them and you won't be like that if that's what you're thinking. Thank you for telling me Vince." I said and he looked at me with tears in his eyes and gave me a weak smile. It was just the two of us feeling safe in each other's arms for the rest of the night watching horror movies and ordering a lot of subway (I'm currently so obsessed with subway I dont care if its expensive. It is the bomb!)