A Taekook Short Story
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The noise start to fade away and the lights start to dim.
Until he breaths in his last breath.
He left the world, his universe. The door burst open and first thing they saw is a lifeless- bloody pooling in his own blood- Jungkook. All of the people in there is horrified in what they are seeing. The nurse is rushing back and forth trying to save the already lifeless boy.
Taehyung stare at the blood that was occupying the tiles, it was scarily red. More tears stream down his eyes as he can't believe what just happen, he never thought Jungkook would kill his self again. He never knew what happen in 1 month without him. The people in the room pushing pass him, he sometimes stumble forward until all he can hear is the Doctor' announcement,
"3:23 PM Time of death."
He look at behind and see the lifeless body of Jungkook. He shake his head continuously not taking the information, he stride forward and push people away. What did he do?
"Jungk- kook, baby, I'm here- Taehyung is here.... noooo.. DOC! SAVE HIM FUCK!!!! HE CAN'T DIE! HE CAN'T JUST LEAV- ME.... NOOOOOOOOOOO!"
As he jump up and down shaking Jungkook's body, it hurts.
Deep down his heart, the pain that he inflict it was so painful. Jungkook leave him, he left Jungkook and it is his fault. It was his fault. He cried and cried, beg for the Doctor and nurse to save him, to revive him but all he got is a pat on his back and a 'sorry bud' no, sorry won't save his heart, save him from self guilt.
No it won't save anyone. He cried and cried, he stared at Jungkook's lifeless body until a paper caught his attention. He gets the paper and read it, the first three words made him cry more.
"To my world, Taehyung
If you're reading this I'm happy.
This letter is supposed to be calming and loving,
But you know I can't, I can't when all I can think is the way those
Lips of yours shut me to death, those eyes of yours stare at me like
I was some experiment that disappoints you.
This is a heart to heart letter, my feelings contains this letter.
Feelings, does you even have that? I remember you always frown
At me everytime I would say I love you
Everytime I would say I miss you.
Clearly, you doesn't love me at all but,
That's alright.
I knew, I knew it from the very first start.
I knew you never really saw me as a lover.
I was your friend, a friend who ended up confessing to you.
And of course, the guilt of ruining our relationshhip is there
So you end up saying you love me too.
I know that you lie, I can see it in your eyes.
The way those eyes lost it's glow.
The way those lips lost its genuine smile.
I'm sorry for letting you suffer.
I don't need any universe because Tae, you are my Universe.
I wish it was all true, I wish it was real.
I wish, I was there for you.
I wish you could love me.
But I can't anymore.
I hate it when you cry because you never love me the way I do.
I hate it when you leave me secretly at night and the assurance of you
Coming back is low. I will surely miss you.
Be happy as you find someone who loves you more than me.
Be happy as I let you go.
Be happy cause I completely letting you go my universe.
Thank you for giving some glint of star in my dark universe.
You give me light as I slowly loses mine.
I gave you my all and maybe it's time to let you go.
I love you my Universe, to the galaxies and stars.
Your friend.
Jeon Jungkook
His knees lost its balance and he kneeled down, saying sorry over and over. He took the letter near his heart, before he looks at Jungkook again. He made his way to him and gently held the now cold hands of Jungkook before shakily kiss it,
"Y- you will never be my friend. You're my Home Gguk, y- you just didn't see it. I was- I was scared, I'm sick Love. I'm dying and I don't wanna hurt you, I leave every evening because that's the only time I can have checkups, I'm sorry. Please.. I love you so so so much it hurts to see you like this. You will always be my universe and I promise in another world we would see each other and that time I won't ever let you go. I love you from the galaxies and star my petals."
As he slowly let go Jungkook's hands and stare at the man. He never knew what the world has for them, everything has a reason they said but what kind of reason is this? What kind of reason the world has to give for him to understand why did they end up here?
Maybe because they're too careless, to naive to realize that they start to drift of one another. One needs to save while one needs to be save, how cruel is that.
Taehyung doesn't know anymore, but he's sure that after this life. No matter what happens he will find Jungkook and correct his wrongs. He will surely never leave the man's side again.
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The End 💚
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