Hey guys.....I'm back!
Sorry I was gone for a while. I've just been soooooooo busy.
Schools been going fine. My home life's ok.......I mean......yeah it's improved but it's still pretty bad. I've shut my family out completely. My relationship is going great actually. I'm a really surprised that we haven't fought......which I don't know if that's a great thing or not.
I miss my closest friend Caleb (Luc). I haven't seen him in weeks and it's worrying me. Sometimes I wonder if I'm the reason he left school. I know I shouldn't think that he hated me.....but I do. Sometimes I think he hated me but just hid it well and pretended everything. Other times I think he really did love me and held me close cuz he knew I needed someone. Some days I think he new me true self and was afraid. Not for him.....but for me...... I told him whatever I needed to talk about and he listened. I think that's why I fell for him.....he was my everything.......I needed him and he was there.....
But anyways I'm good....I'm fine.....that's a fucking lie but who cares?
My whole fucking life is a lie......I'm a fake.
I'm nothing......worthless....but just keep ignoring me...please...I'm not worth your time.....
