it was the day she dreaded,
her palms sweaty, face red and she could feel her heart in her throat,
the day she had to deal with a guy who knows, her big secret, he knows she likes him,
shes been told by others he doesn't feel the same, which just ate away her self confidence.
and being in the same school as her ex boyfriend did not help the situation,
all she wants to do is hide, the cold wind biting at her skin, her racing heart making her feel like she took a adrenaline shot, all she wants to do is run, run like a wolf after its pray, but right now she feels like the pray, like if she makes one wrong move.
its over for her, she sees her friend neeve, she runs to her and tells her the situation, and her and neeve go sit under a tree in the school, she pulls out her guitar and starts playing her emotions,
hoping her singing out her emotions will help with her nervousness, her friend neeve dancing from where she sits saying "yess bitch", while moving her arms around,
her friend neeve is the best thing that happened to her, she makes her feel like her second haft is stuck in a body of her sister, which neeve is to her.
she sees her ex, which just eats more away at her self confidence, you see hes the cute Italian guy who everyone looks at, and he hates her guts, and she honestly wishes she was the perfect girl skinny, amazing academically, and everyone loved her, but shes just the music nerd, who's cool with the gays, and she loves where she is in life but she wants more, all she wants is to be loved and cared for like she once was.
but shes lonely and will be forever, she feels like shes always walking though deaths front door and going straight to the door of anti social and lonely,
she wants to be in the group of girls that 90% of the girls in her year are in, she wants to be skinny and have a loving boyfriend who loves her and doesn't care for her imperfections.
you could say she wanted to be normal in the worlds eye, but she got a two cats and a hole lot of problems.
