Guys like sorry but I really need to rant right now.
Don't do this,don't just read someone's message and then just ignore it and then the next day just say things like "Oh I read your message but I didn't want to respond" like that's such a dick move in my opinion. Cool you don't want to respond,don't rub it in that you didn't want to talk to me,am I annoying? Am I a problem? Why the hell wouldn't you want to just speak with me. And then when I say things along the lines of "Well I'm not surprised" or "I would ignore me too" or even "I mean I'm used to it so whatever" WHY would you want to fall intot he majority?!?! Like that's so mind boggling to me and I hate it so fucking much and people don't even know. This has happened multiple times and yes I'm used to it,many do it. But then I think about it like,am I that annoying? Do they even like me or are they using me? In real life too when I deal with you. Like I enjoy the people who don't do that,but then when they have the excuse that they where sleep or something it's so hard to just trust them right off the bat because you don't truly know if they where sleep and they weren't just ignoring you cause they didn't want to speak to you. Like this is why I don't express myself like that in real life with many,only a few I can trust which is mainly 2½ people. Like really,you may think it's cute,quirky,funny,or whatever but that shit hurts to the person on the other end,escpecially when all they have down is treated you good and has helped you out. And then you want to talk about drama and get help,I helped you. You needed help in class with work,I've helped you,I've helped you do your essay,I've helped you sort out your thoughts and raise your grades up. Like I really REALLY don't want much,I really don't. I just want to feel like a real friend and be able to rely on you like you rely on me but I guess that's just asking too much. This is for the others too that I had literally done nothing too. Fuck you. Fuck you.
Fuck YOU.
