In my mind

So far gone

Lately I've been to far gone in my thought always trying to figure out what I'm doing wrong I try a har to keep my emotions hidden away since I've messed up and broke up with the girl of my dreams since then everything has gotten worse then it was since me and her broke up we still keep in touch but it's hard to not say how I feel about her to her. When we text an it's taken me all this time to figure out she was my soul mate but it's to late so I stay faded to keep my emotions gone. Lately I wanna leave pa again but with everything going on it's hard and I can't I try so hard everyday to not cut again but it seems like it's getting harder and harder to do as the days go by do yo the fact I try so hard to please everyone an it seems to always fail but that's ok I'm used to it always being my fault... I have so much stuff on my mind it's not even funny I've been writing so much music to where I'm driving my self crazy any more.......