you know that moment when you rethink of everything that has happened in ur life?
the happy moments
the sad moments
the funny moments
the cute moments
the suicidal moments...
the moment when ur in the hospital
and you realize..
you almost just ended..everything?..
you can't even breathe
the only thing you can think of is the pain you are having
the air in ur body not entering or exiting
the pain from you past..
from ur present
and the pressure from ur future
bc for me thats almost all the time.. and i keep everything i dont let it out bc when i do i get asked..
"why?"
and i dont know how to answer that
bc
you wont understand how it feels
you may get it
but you wont understand
and all bc i thought of the past,
my problems,
my Insecurities,
my life
and i cant just take the easy way out
no matter how much i might want to..
and i dont really have anyone rn it feels
even if my friend(s) come up to me about this they dont undersrand
bc they havent lived my life
i know ppl might have it worse
but actually thinking you wanna die..
that the world would be better off without you
thats not something to take lightly
im asking for help
and i am hopefully gonna get it
YOU ARE READING
this is life
Randomeveryone needs to vent...sometimes good but also bad ikeep putting vents in my otheer books so this my life....
