Ceremonial sorrows

Chapter 1

I'm in love. I knew I was from the minute I saw him. He was of course the popular guy in school, and I was a social outcast. But we had every class together. It wasn't like I just saw him in the hall. Lilly was the one who he was dating. She was just as popular as he was which made sense that they were dating. Everybody thought they were perfect together, except me.
Everybody just thinks it's so easy to fit in. Well news flash it isn't. Trust me I know. I'm that girl that is in the locker room all alone. I'm that girl that some people are worried about, and some just talk about. I'm that girl that always goes to guidance and doesn't come out of that office for about an hour. Everybody wonders why does she go in there all the time?. Well I go in their because of you. All of you are the ones who make me have to go see our schools guidance counselor every Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday at 2:15. So if you ask why I'll say because of you.
I really don't have that bad of a life it
just is bad when I'm at school. Nobody knows this, but I'm rich. I've had a lot of experience with burglars. Ok not really, but my house is that really big one that looks over every house below us. I have designer clothes, a lot of money (I mean a lot), and pretty much anything I need to be popular. But that's the thing I'm not. I know this is really sad but I've actually thought of suicide. I just don't think that I have a point in living but whatever. Nobody will ever know the truth because nobody notices me. I know it's gotten really out of hand.