If only

Part 6

It was raining that day and the temperature was kinda cold. Here I was stranded in a cafe by a corner because I forgot to bring an umbrella and trying to warm up myself with a cup of warm coffee.

And suddenly I thought of him. The night I met him in the rain.

That night we bumped into each other by chance. I was on my way to the convenience store while he was on his way to his house. He was drenched, soaked in rain water. His shoulders slumped and his eyes were puffy red but when he saw me, he smiled. He was trying to pretend he was okay and I let him. At that moment, I felt like it was the right thing to do. I felt like if I waited he would eventually told me why. I didn't want to force it on him. 

I wished I gave him a hug that day. I wished I told him the same thing he told me.

'Everything is going to be okay.'

But I was a coward. I was scared that I couldn't make him feel okay. I was scared that I found out he actually didn't need me in his life, that he didn't trust me to see him at his weakest point.

I offered him my umbrella but he declined.

"It feels like the rain takes away all the bad energy and I become totally a new person," he said.

And at that moment, I didn't know why but I put away the umbrella. I changed my mind and decided to walk together with him.

"Why are you following me?" He asked.

"I want to be a new person too," I replied with a smile.

We were soaked wet but at this moment, I felt like nothing matter.

Nothing matter except of him.

And I hoped he knew it.