jotaro kujo x reader one-shots✨🖤

needy

im. sorry. i keep writing these whenever i feel horrible at home/overworked-
no warnings this time. just the reader hating themselves a little.

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It seemed like you always had problems. You always felt guilt and everything seemed to always be pushed aside you.

It was your fault that you were overloading in your work.

It was your fault that your parents hated your guts.

It was your fault that your writing seemed to be much more gloomy and depressing lately.

No matter the circumstances, it was always your fault.

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You drew in the strings of your sweatshirt and began to cry. Looking at all of the work that was laid out in front of you. You had fallen behind with all of your projects, and frustrated, you had nothing better to do but cry. You looked up again at work and just decided to work through it. Tears sometimes fell onto the pages, but it did not matter as your hand kept filling in the worksheets with your pencil and soon enough, you were stuck on this specific problem on a math worksheet. And you cried harder. You were already frustrated with everything, and you kept remembering how useless you always felt. Like always, you would drown yourself with work to push these feelings aside, but it always seemed to hit you back harder each time.

You suddenly heard the door open and you hid your face with your hands. It was Jotaro. Your boyfriend and sometimes emotional support. Okay. Barely emotional support. You understand that he doesn't want to shove himself to your issues, but you slightly wished he would open up. But you wouldn't force him to. It's not like you had the heart to anyways.

Jotaro looked around the room and saw you hunched over at your desk. "Y/N."

Your back shivered with the way he would say your name. It rolled off his tongue ever so perfectly. You shivered and pulled back down your hood and covered your eyes. You didn't need him to see your puffy eyes from all of this crying. But you heard Star Platinum being summoned. Soon, you felt cold, yet soft hands tugging your wrists downwards. "Ora?" you heard the ghost speak out. When you let your hands go down, you closed your eyes as you heard Jotaro walking towards you and Star Platinum was examining you.

"You have been crying, haven't you?" you heard Jotaro blow out. You open your eyes and whisper "Y-yes." you wanted to say "No" but you had no point in lying, for your puffy eyes and slightly snotty nose told Jotaro and Star Platinum otherwise. You sniffed and went for tissue and you wiped your nose. And Star watched your every move. Jotaro simply tugged his hat down.

"Why?"

Of course, this sounded like a command rather than an actual question. Jotaro always seemed harsh, even in calm situations like these. But to him, it wasn't calm at all. He always dreaded seeing you like this. He always wanted to do something, for you were everything to him. But he just couldn't bring himself to show you his weaknesses. Not yet, at least. He repeated his question. "Why?" He hoped he sounded less stern. And he slightly did. But only a little. You took a breath as you shoved your (h/c) bangs away and took a step towards Jotaro and Star.

For sure, you didn't know what to say, but you looked at Jotaro. You had nothing to lose. "For starters, I don't know how to fully start off. I feel so numb with my schoolwork and projects that I'm lost with them. I feel like I'm on an essential limbo with it..." you fumed out as you pointed towards the desk, with the tear-stained pages. "...And me. And my parents and my fucking-..." you picked up a pillow from your bed and you threw it against the wall with all of your might. "...issues that I hold against myself will always hold me back some stupid way. It's all bullshit and I just sometimes wonder..." you held your back against Jotaro, for you did not want to see his reaction to this. "... Do you even enjoy being with me? Like, do you want to be near me? Or be in this relationship at all? I know for sure that... I do. For crying out loud, each time I see you, I want to fall into a void with your arms..." your eyes started to fill up with tears as you walked to Jotaro. "... I don't know how to handle my messes, Jotaro. I don't know anything anymore." you sniffled out. You looked at his eyes and only saw the coldness that was his blue, ocean eyes. God, you couldn't handle this man even if you wanted to. Tears overfilled your eyes as they finally fell down your face. Your knees suddenly fell onto the ground, growing tired enough that you could not support your own weight anymore.