She fell in love. She couldnt help it. She loved him. Fuck, she still does. She is different though. She used to laugh. She used to smile at everything. But that was when he was hers. When he loved her. Now, she cries, she screams but it's a quiet scream. One that only she can hear. Everyone looks at her as an outcast, as someone who shouldn't be loved. She cries herself to sleep. She cuts her wrists. She watches as the blood drips down her wrist. She smiles when that happens. She stops thinking about him in those few moments. But shes scared; scared that someone will notice. If someone notices shes screwed. She attempts suicide every other day. She just wants the pain to leave her the fuck alone. She wants to stop thinking about him. She hates herself because of it. Because she cant stop thinking about him💔 why did she have to go and fall in love? Yes, she was happy when she was his and he was hers but now she cant even smile without thinking about him and then breaking down. Shes failing her classes now. She may not go into her Sophomore year. Yes, shes a freshman. With all this pain you'd think maybe she was in college or atleast a senior. But no, shes a freshman who's heart has been shattered. She hates herself for letting him go. She hurts everyday. Yes, this was 7 months ago when she got heartbroken. Shit, they werent even together for that long but shes still hurt. They were together for about two or three weeks then he broke her. Literally broke her. She couldnt do anything for the next two or so weeks. She had a mental breakdown during class. She kept thinking about him and couldnt get his smiling face out of her head. He told her he loved her. But he lied. If he really had loved her then whyd he break her heart then cut her off? Whyd he go to her best friend and try and hook up with her- they dated but he tried to fuck her- why did he lie? Whyd he have to break her like that? Why did he make her fall in love and then rip her heart out of her fucking chest and watch her bleed out. Why did he make her more suicidal?
