I spend every waking moment wondering why... Why I'm never good enough... Why I am the way I am... Why people have to be the way they are...
I want to go back to releasing my pain, I want to lose the weight... I want to feel beautiful for fucking once in my adult life...
I want to know why my body does what it has been doing since 2017... I want to know why shit has to happen the way it does...
I'm just so done with feeling like I do I want to feel unhindered happiness and I want to start my life and my family... But I have doubts my wishes will ever happen.
