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www.juliahendersonrants.blog

10 February 2020

my friends are really over the top. I don't hate them it's just that they're really hard to cope with. like, when your friends talked about how useless they are or how their parents always scold them, it gets hard if you're expected to give advice because you're the 'one that hasn't been through anything and has nice parents also a nice life without any hardships' kinda guy. yes, my friends said that i'm like that. but if you think about it carefully, people that didn't go through hardships aren't great at giving advice because, well, they've never been hurt before! take note that everyone in this whole entire world will experience hardships but when they said I, the one that has to listen to them didn't have any experience in that broke my heart.

like, I know they're going through a lot and i'm not in the right position to say all these but it's tiring to go through every single one of them ranting about their life and give different advices to them each time they rant. i've been listening to them for a long time now and i'm really awkward so you'll have to imagine how many miracles that happened when I managed to actually talk to them without stuttering.

something happened yesterday on our group chat and i've never gotten that many messages in my whole entire years of living. by the way, please be informed that I didn't join the conversation at all because I was busy with work.

so I managed to read the messages and listen to the voice messages in about thirty minutes [it's a really long conversation] and in the end, the only admin, melissa, removed everyone. including me.

I was really weirded out and it's only today that melissa added us back without a few people [the ones that really became emotional]  in the group. so, I put my thinking caps on and started writing a long message to tell them my opinion, which isn't needed, for the sake of bringing everyone back together.

apparently, someone in my group chat, lily, even told her dad about everything and lily's dad messaged us using her phone to stop adding lily to the group. I was like, dude calm the heck down your daughter became emotional and now you're blaming us?

okay back to the message I wrote. I talked about why we shouldn't be over dramatic about stuff and how sometimes it's really uncomfortable for people to hear rants.

another one in my group, riley, was in a whole other school in a different state. I messaged about how we should apologise to her for the conversation that my friends had. I apologised, actually. it's a good thing that she didn't mind it and actually understood why everyone's like that. although I found it weird that she left the group, I was still grateful that she didn't mind.

what kind of person am I? I am:
- a bad friend

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"i'm finished. finally, it took a long time" Julia said as she logged out of her blog and turned off her computer. it was a sunny morning and school was really exhausting. she went outside of her room, her mug in hand as she walked down the beige stairs. she arrived at her kitchen and started making tea for herself. after a few minutes, she went straight to the living room to watch tv. her favourite show was going to be playing in a few minutes so she turned the tv on using the remote control.

"living with the hellirys is starting. what nice timing" she said to herself as the intro for the show started playing. the song for the intro was catchy, making Julia sing every time it's on. the lyrics somehow matched the mood she was feeling now; chill.

not forgetting to turn off the tv, she went back to her room to go to bed. she washed herself with warm water and wore a lilac coloured shirt underneath her hoodie. now laying down on her bed, she talked to herself about everything that was going on.

"what a boring life. I need to think of an advice for everyone tomorrow. Melissa, what would she be ranting about? Lily? Kyla? why is it always like this?" she ended her words and slept uncomfortably, constantly having different thoughts of her friends.