emergency. (Tom Hiddleston x Reader One-shot)

iii.

Tom's POV

When an ambulance arrived I was a wreck, my hands were shaking, my head buzzing, the worst thoughts running through my mind. I asked them if I can go with her. I wanted to spend every moment with her as long as I could but they didn't let me because I'm not her family. What do you mean I'm not her family? I'm the only family she has. Or had? The medics didn't even tell me if she would be alright or not, got Y/n into the vehicle and left. A police officer asked me a few questions, fill in a form like she was not more than another paper to card file.

And then, they left. I stayed in Y/n's house, not able to move, sitting on the bed she was lying on only a while ago, running my hand over her duvets, thinking what I could have done differently so she would be alright and happy. I knew too well I was one of those who caused her fall.

FLASHBACK

I took her hand: "There is something.. something I want to tell you." It was our last week of secondary school before our leaving exams started. This was my chance, my last chance to tell her, to pour my aching heart and everything I was holding inside for so unbearably long. We were sitting in a cafeteria, having a milkshake. I was determined, ready to tell her.

Holding her hand, I looked into her beautiful eyes and all of my thoughts, everything I prepared to say suddenly vanished, my mind got blank, complete emptiness. And I stayed like that, speechless, ridiculous.

She chuckled at my nervousness: "what is it, Tommie?" and with a smile on lips stroked my hands with her thumbs, trying to calm me. "I... I..." *oh my god, I can't do this, what if she'll reject me* "I'm.." *aaahhh* "I'm gonna study acting at the Royal Academy of dramatic arts." *you moron* Her face lit up and pulled me into a tight hug.

"I'm so happy for you. You'll be great." I loved hugging her, it always felt so comfortable. I hoped it would never end.

END OF THE FLASHBACK

The memory got right through my heart like a bullet. My head sank into my hands. Why didn't I call her? Why wasn't I here for her? Why did I give up so easily? Why did I go at that stupid school? Why did I move on? Why?

I left her, betrayed her but I won't make the same mistake again. Not this time. God, I hope I'm not too late. I got up and headed to the hospital where they hospitalised her.

Arriving at the hospital, I searched for her, asking every nurse I met. Finally, there was one, who knew who I am talking about. She looked at a list: "Oh, yes, there she is, (Y/n) (Y/l/n). I'm sorry, sir, she hasn't woken up yet and we can't tell any information without patient's agreement, family members only. I'm sorry, I can't do anything for you right now." I was getting frustrated. "May I know where is her room, please?" I tried to say calmly despite my wrecked nerves. "Yes, this way, room number 178. However, wait outside of the room, please. We will tell you when she's up and ready to see you.

Ten hours, I've been waiting for ten hours. I've never felt so desperate in my life. The worst thoughts running through my mind like dark clouds. I tried to think positive, to tell myself everything is going to be alright, she's going to be alright but the feeling of guilt always won. Then, I remembered Daniel. Oh, that bastard. Why wasn't he with her? Why was she crying? What did he do to her? If I ever meet him again. Ten hours and I couldn't eat, drink, sleep or think about anything but (Y/n).

"Mr Hiddleston?" I looked up and saw a doctor. "Yes? Yes, that's me." I said, wiping away tears and standing up, my heart beating fast. "How is she? Is she alright? Did she wake up?" "She is stabilized for now. We had to pump out the content of her stomach. Do you want to see her? "Yes, please." "She is up but still very weak so I please you not to stay too long."