Dear Daddy

My life without you.

As soon as I got older I realized that my dad wasn't there. So I asked my sisters grandma ( my sisters grandmas name is De) and she said that he was in jail. That broke me. I did not want my dad in there. But I remember that he always sent me letters. But only on holidays.  But sometimes not, just random. So I would write back and tell my sisters grandma to mail it to him. And I guess she did. Until I found my letters in a drawer in my sisters grandmas room. I was angry, but decided to stay quiet. Then I wanted to see my  grandma, cousins, Uncles, and most of all, my dad. So I asked if I could go over there. To my grandmas. She called but no answer. I. Was. Disappointed. Lets fast forward again. I am 9. About to be 10. So my grandma called my sisters grandma and asked if I could spend some time with them for my 10th birthday. Well since I was turning double digits. And she let me. I had an amazing birthday. The months went by and soon enough I was 11. My sisters grandma showed me a picture on face book, and it was my whole family. I mean my cousins, my grandma, Uncles, and other people I didn't even know. They went to go see some beautiful horses. De was honest with me, and told me that my grandma (Bev) didn't have enough room for me. And it was true. They didn't have room for her (Bev) son (troy) ONLY daughter. But that didn't matter. Sure I was very upset, but De took me to get ice cream, the park, then I got to go home and watch tv. 

Im a pawpas girl. We are like best friends. He would take me and my sister to the park, swimming, and lots of other things. My sisters name is Shaylynn. But my pawpa would do anything for me, but i would actually do anything for him though. He is dying. I know he is. He has a really bad cough and has a hole in his rib. Well he tries his best to do what he needs.