#NotADayGoesBy

Not a day goes by where I can ignore the emptiness in my heart
This void seems to be growing deeper day after day
I look at myself in the mirror,unkempt hair,pale face streaked with tears,swollen lips
And I let the pain overtake me again
My mind goes numb,at least the voices in my head stop screaming,"It's all your fault."

Not a night goes by when I don't cry myself to sleep
The scars on my body remind me of my flaws,my insecurities
Always a disappointment,never perfect
For how many days am I going to hide from the rest of the world?
I shut my eyes and let my thoughts take over me
The voices in my head are back
It is all my fault

Not a day goes by when I'm not constantly on the verge of tears
Pulling my hair,biting my nails
My anxiety brings out the worst in me
But - was I ever any better?
I am breaking down,I am falling apart,I am crying for help
But there's no hand reaching out for me
Because it was all my fault.

Not a day goes by when my mind agrees to function properly
Meeting people and talking to them feels like a curse
I might smile but there's a storm raging inside of me
I've given up on living
All I do now is stay alive.