minsung
cw; angst, verbal abuse, toxic relationship, posessive, vanilla ?
requested
he knew. jisung knew there was something wrong with this.... but he couldnt bring himself to leave. he loved minho, he did. he just didnt know if he could withstand the aggression that never seemed to fade.
its like he's two different people, one is the person he fell in love with, the second a stranger filled with anger and insecurities. even worse during sex, the safeness and pleasure he had felt as minho pinched his nipples and hit all the right spots, making him a mess, turned rough and degrading, being fucked into oblivion as he loses his mind, whispering humilating words, which he usually wouldnt mind if it werent for the hatred that seemed to accompany it, leaving him tired and empty.
one who whispered words filled with endearment and love. the other who bellowed words of exasperation. as much as jisung knew he didnt mean it.. he cant help but to believe it at times. he was just thankful, there was never a point where minho would hit him.
when he is out with friends, even if minho isnt around, he feels as though hes walking on egg shells. joking around with changbin, having a good time.
minho happens to see and is relatively quiet and usually this isnt a bad thing, usually he would approach them and cling onto the younger, but with how he had been lately all he felt was frustration.
hours pass, when jisung gets to their shared apartment, its quiet, nothing but the tv playing on low. "minho? im home" he calls out. not too long after minho emerges from their bedroom, he snatches jisungs hand and drags him to the couch. he pins him down.
"youre such a whore, i saw the way you were when you were with him"
he kisses the other forcefully, sloppy, rough, and filled with frustration, there was barely any room for the younger to breathe. though its not long till minho pulls back, staring at the other.
jisung expected him to spout more degrading phrases, instead he was met by tearful eyes and quivering lips, he hadnt seen him this beaten and broken since before they began dating.
the prominent bags under his eyes that concealer couldnt fix, dishelved hair, and red nose. he lifted his hands and wiped the tears that spilled from the olders eges eyes.
"why do you stay with me, sungie? ive been such a toxic asshole" he sits back on the couch, leaving a stunned jisung still laying down. "why havent you left?"
it was clear that the aggression and frustration was rooted from minho's insecurities. he let his thoughts of jisung leaving him control him, not realising he was pushing jisung further away.
jisung knew he needed to talk about this with him even before they began dating minho found it difficult to talk about his past relationships, with good reason. "i understand you were feeling upset but that doesnt make how you treated me okay, please just talk to me about things like this, i know its difficult but im not going to judge you, im your boyfriend for a reason, min." minho sniffles, mumbling multiple, "im sorry's".
"its gonna be okay, just trust me"
jisungs pulls him in and kisses his boyfriends forehead.
"im sorry.... thank you sung." he pulls away wiping his face.
they fucked that night, face to face, body's close. it wasnt lustful but rather endearing and passionate, minho wanted his boyfriend to feel safe and loved as he moved in and out of him slowly picking up pace.
the room filled with soft moans and whimpers from the pair, whispering praises and endearing terms. "youre so pretty angel" , "such a pretty prince" leaving soft kisses down his neck for every praise.
he toys and leaves kitten licks at the youngers nipples just the way he likes it sending jisung over the edge, moaning out with minho's name leaving his tongue. he couldnt help but feel his heart swell. he questions how he had ever doubted the love jisung had for him. he kisses him once more on the head. "i love you truly, you are so kind"
jisung clings to him like a bear cub, way too sleepy to get to say anything or get cleaned up, minho suffices and licks any of the mess that was made up. theyll shower later he decides. he'll do better for jisung.
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uh... yeah um i tried ! thank you for requesting, i hope you like it :( i was kinda iffy about doing this bc it seemed really toxic but i hope this works for you!
