The Counselor

Chapter 23- The Conversation

I was in bed sleep,until I heard August crying. Chris....Chris...Chris... "What." Go get her. "I don't have titties...you do..." okay,well get her and bring her in here. "No." You mean...Fat face "Haha." I went into August room to get her. Whats wrong mama,you won't daddy don't you,come on lets go mess with daddy sence he didn't want to get you. I sat August right on Chris face,Chris is a hard sleeper its weird though,he doesn't even snore. "BABY,COME ON MAN,YOU CAN'T BE FARTING LIKE THAT..." Omg,Chris that wasn't me,that was August. I think she shited and your face a little. "BULLSHIT...WHY THE FUCK YOU PUT HER ON MY FACE THE FISRT PLACE,DAMN MAN..." he went to the bathroom and I sat August down on the bed... Chris,baby,chill I was playing okay,she didn't shit on your face haha. "Naw,that shit aint funny." Okay,look at me,I'm sorry papi,it was pay back from not getting her for me you know i'm on my period and i'm in deep pain. "I forgot." Whatever. "I did." Chris picked me up and put me on the sink. Your daughter is out their. "Mmmhmmm." Chris,we can't do this not while she is in here. "What does she know she just.a.baby." She know more than you think. "Yea,well not this." I am on my period,but we can still have sex,if your willing to get blood on my penis. "I'm out.." Haha. "Baby,come and look at August." What,awwww,she sleep just like you. "That's my girl. Now she gotta get up." No,daddy has to sleep on the couch,I want to sleep with my baby. "Well you better find a way to extend her crib,because i'm not sleeping on no couch." Fine,me and her will sleep on the couch. "No,you sleeping with me." So where is she going to sleep? "There is seven rooms on this house and she has one,so where do you think." Smart ass. "I've been told." I was walking out the room to go put August in her room,then Chris slaped my ass. I turned around and looked at him and walked back out. August,you father needs help haha. Goodnight mama,I love you. I walked back out and laid down in the bed and Chris wrapped me up in hia arms. "Baby." Yea. "When can we have another baby?."

CHRIS POV

Right when I asked her that she didn't say a word. Baby.. "I heard you Chris." So...when? "Dunno." What about next year? "Hell naw." Why? "To early." And. "So you going to push the baby out for me." No. "Okay than." How about two years. "Dunno,I'll think about it." You know I...nevermind. "No,tell me,you know I hate when you start a sentence and don't finish it." I was just going to say that I've changed,I'm not going to leave you I was just scared baby,I wasn't ready to become a father yet and I wouldn't even know what to do or how to do it,what if I was too lose you or what if I was to... "Chris,hunny,baby,breath relax its okay,I trust you,and I believe you it happens sometimes,when you left it broke my heart but your back now and thats all that matters. Me and August has our protecter now,thats all we need." Yea,but... "But nothing baby,we have you and you have us." I'm scared. When I said that she got up and turned on the light and sat on the bed. "What are you afraid of?." I did not want to have a therapy session. "Well you do,so tell me." Ughh fine,I laid my head on her thighs and said. I'm afraid beacuse what if I'm not a good father,what if I'm sorry, useless? "If you were a sorry and a useless father,you would of never came back." Yea,but I would of also never left. "Are you afraid of being like your father?" I didn't say anything because thats exactly what I'm afraid of... "Silence says a lot Christopher,listen to me baby,you have to prove your self that your not like that. Your better than him,you can do this baby,its not easy,but your not alone,I'm here,I will forever be here when you need me." Thanks baby. "When you left,what was the first thing that popped up in your head?" To be honest,I was thinking about my father,and how he left me and my mother,and how my mother had no help at all so I had to go on the streets and make that money,ha,mama hated that, she would yell and whoop my ass,but I had no choice but too,I was hurt when I seen my mom struggling,and then it hit me thats what my son or daughter is going to be doing if I'm not their for them,they'll hate me,like I hate my father... "Chris,if you would of never thought about that you wouldn't be here,everything happens for a reason,good or bad,for example your father left you,now look at you,your here showing your self,mama,me,and your daughter that you can do this,and that shows alot papi,I'm proud of you baby." Damn,I love this woman,shes fucking good at what she does,she tells you how it is,I felt the tears roll down my cheaks. Thanks mama,but I wouldn't be able to do this with out you here. "Haha,a lot of people tell me that,even my patience,and I tell them,you'll be suprised how much you can do without me if you just believe in your self." No,thats a lie,I can't... "Yes,you can,don't say can't because you can. Now give me a kiss and go to sleep you gotta take care of August while I go to work in the morning,and stop crying you'll be fine,trust me." Okay. I love you. "Love you too big boy."