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Ellie's P.O.V.
How do you live when everything you do is wrong in everyone else's eyes? How do you live when your biggest hater of you is yourself? How can you fix a life that isn't even worth living? How can you make worthy if you don't even think you have self-worth?
Well, let me tell you the answer.
You find someone new.
You find someone who will help you find yourself and will stick by your side through the process. You find someone who will tell you that you are trying your best and tell you that your best is enough. You find someone who will fix you and tell you that you are worth fixing.
If you asked me a month ago if I believed in all of that. I would have said no. I would have told you that love doesn't exist much less for true love. I would tell you that no one could make me feel better about myself. I would have told you that this is real life and things like that only happen in fairytales but then something happened.
I found him...
1 month ago
There I was again sitting on in that one corner of my room, the lights were off and my headphones were in. I would get lost in my thoughts while staring at the wall the tears would just run down my face.
Why am I here? I mess up everything good I ever have in my life. I always hurt people I care about most and they always end up distancing themselves from me but I don't blame them, look at me, I am a living disaster. I mean like something is wrong with me, that has to be true cause no normal person has an anxiety attack over nothing or simple things yet here I am. No normal person has panic attacks almost every day yet here I am. No normal person overthinks even the simplest things in life yet here I am.No normal person can look at themselves in the mirror and say to there reflection, "wow you are just a mistake. Why are you still here when all you do it mess up everything and make other people's lives harder."
Right now, sitting here with my head in my hands and tears streaming down my face and nothing could get me to stop, or so I thought. While I was crying, my phone started beeping. I wiped my tears and sucked it up for a while. I unlocked my phone and saw a notification for Instagram. It was him. My celebrity crush Zach Herron. He just posted on his account. I rush to see his post and turns out I was one of the first people there.
On Instagram
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@imzachherronomw to Asia rn. Life has been crazy. I hope you guys know that getting here wasn't easy but the pain was worth it. So just putting this out there, the struggles of today will bring successes of tomorrow.
