I empty my stomach once again. God I love morning sickness. I finish up and head downstairs. Svea comes bounding towards me. She looks excited. "can we go to the park" she asks me. "I don't feel the best right now maybe later." I tell her. She pouts at me and gives me her puppy dog eyes. "fine let me get ready" I tell her as she does her happy dance. I laugh at her. I go upstairs. I begin to get dressed. I put on a pair of leggings and some shoes. I then put on a sports bra. I do some light makeup trying to cover up my red puffy eyes. I pick up a hoodie. Its not mine. Its his. It smells like him too. Tears spring to my eyes. I place the hoodie back where it was not wanting to be near it. I find a hoodie that he didn't own and put it on. I put on some perfume because I probably smell like shit. I grab a few altoids and pop them in. I brush through my hair and leave it down. I grab a bag and put everything I need in it. I notice a corner of a picture. I pick the picture up and there he is. Taunting me with those eyes. Those eyes I feel in love with. Those eyes that might be passed onto my child. My child. Not ours. Mine. Not ours. I repeat. "are we going to go" Svea asks poking her head in. "yeah" I mumble. I take one last look at his eyes and drop the picture into the trash can. Hes not mine anymore. I need to move on. I wasn't good enough. Again. For him again.
" I have a little brother here some where" he tells me
I notice Svea coming towards me crying. I crouch down. "hey Svea whats up?" I ask her. I wrap my arms around her. "theres a little boy who hit me" she tells me. "where at" I ask. She points to a little boy near the swings. "c'mon" I tell her. I take her hand. I begin to walk towards the little boy. "Madi no!" Svea tells me. "hes going to tell you he is sorry and I want to talk to his mom" i tell her. "I think the baby is affecting you" Svea tells me. "oh shut up" I tell her. I see Cole with the little boy. "hey madison " he greets smiling.
"is this your little brother" I ask him
"yeah why" he laughs
"well he hit my sister"I tell him
"and?" He asks still laughing
" he shouldn't be hitting people" I tell him
"he can do whatever the hell he wants" he tells me
"well he hurt my sister and I want to know why"
" you don't have to know why"
" yes I do because you're not going to hit my sister and get away with it"
" Madi I think the baby is affecting you again" Svea tells me pulling my hand, "lets go"
" you're pregnant! Of course you are you little slut." He laughs in my face. "let me guess one night stand or your boyfriend cheated on you because he cares about you so much"
Bingo.
" And of course you're a dick probably a bigger dick than one down there" I tell him. I grab Svea hand and drag her off. Don't cry. Not here. Not here. Not in front of Svea. "Madi my hand hurts" Sveas voice breaks through my thoughts. "right sorry" I tell her. "why did he upset you?" Svea asks me. Svea doesn't know about Daniel. She thinks we're still dating. "lets go get some ice cream. " I tell her. We find a nice ice cream place. Svea gets an ice cream and I get some hot chocolate since I can't have coffee. We sit down. Svea is smart for her age she'll understand and maybe not hate Daniel for the rest of her life. "why did he upset you?" she asks. Damn this kid is better at life than I am. "Daniel and I broke up" I tell her. "again" she groans. I laugh a little. Just a little though. "why is it because of the baby" she asks me. "no Daniel doesn't know about the baby yet and I will tell you later but not now."i tell her. "whats a slut" she asks. Oh god. I laugh. "don't say that around mom and dad"
