I feel like a mistake, that everything i do9 will never be enough. the sound of the space buttons angers and that makes me so afraid. If i tell anyone of this they won't care or they rhey won't understand it so they take it as a joke. sure when I go to school I harm myself less, on the outside, but on the inside I'm dying so much. people seem to think "She'll get better after we get her things and medication!" NO! IT DOESN'T NO MATTER WHAT I DO! I'm falling apart and I have no-one, Can't this pain ever end? no-one's ever going to really love me because I'm fat, ugly dumb, pathetic and every other bad trait out there! To be fair I am an Insane person so I think Sha're doesn't want me around, and is just using me, I'm not sure why yet. I'd rather my "friends" tell me they hate me, at least I wish Sha're would tell me. The only reason I'm still around is because I'm not positive. The only reason I'm still alive is music and my family, if they died or abandoned me, i would kill myself, lolololol.
