I lay there, left with my own thoughts... I can't continue like this!
The pain, the anger, the sadness...the Guilt... All of this is built up inside of me and it cant get out! It doesny know how to get out...
I could always make a new opening in my body for it all to flow out of, along with the red liquids.
Or perhaps i just try and embrace it all and have it keep building up.
But what if.. what if i snap at someone? What if suddenly all my built up emotions leap out of me in one go, with 1 swing.
I could never forgive myself if i hurt someone? And so my problem would never be fixed with violence.. my guilt would never disappear.
If I go.. people will miss me. People will cry, people will be broken.
But if i stay, i remain broken myself.
I remain blinded to a solution to all my problems and i only have one chance left to fix my problems.. and that's having her by my side..
But if she cant seem to find out how to fix me, will my issues and sadness eventually rub off onto her and put unnecessary stress on her life??
What if i cant be broken and i remain hurting her until i go, but then i hurt her when i go too...
There is no easy way out and somebody is going to be sad...
Either I end my suffering and a sleep a happy man, or i stay up at night sleeping awfully whilst i hurt those around me as i progressively get worse.
