'...such love'

3

Just got home, Babe. 

ZZ texted Yu.

...got somethin' to tell Yu. Can't wait for your call. I love Yu.

Yu, on the other hand, felt relieved and sensed some happiness from ZZ's messages. He knew already what made his babe this excited to tell him about the park and a fan story.

ZZ's a simple person, despite the popularity. He's easy to be with, easy to fell for, easy to love. That's what happened to Yu, he fell hard to ZZ being easy capturing his heart.

ZZ sulked a lot and over thinks when he's sad or whenever did not achieved whatever his goal was, or on some random things he just can't cope up with. Most of the time, he lost track, forgetting where he is, oblivious of the surroundings for thinking too much. That's why there should be someone with him when he's down in the dumps.

Yu remembered one time, during filming of their series. ZZ and him got too close to comfort already. Their gestures are eye candies for the people around them esp to the fans.

The scene they are about to shoot was an intimate one. The director adviced them to rehearsed the said scene, so that it'll come natural when they film it.

 Yu was too comfortable with ZZ so he thought it won't be a problem anymore. So as ZZ thought too. But the moment their lips met, they both lost into the kiss. It merely took minutes before they realized it.  ZZ was nowhere  to be found for almost an hour and everyone on the set was already in panicked. 

Yu found ZZ at the rooftop of the building next to the set location. It was just an instinct that Yu thought of the rooftop. There he found ZZ, just sitting on a bench, staring at the horizon, oblivious of his surrounding.

"What the fvck, ZZ! Everyone's worrying about you and you're just sitting here all this time?" 

"...huh? ...what?" ZZ snapped.

"What's wrong with you?" Yu sit beside ZZ, lift his chin and ask ZZ through his eyes. "...or did I do something you didn't like?"

"uhmm, no ...I'm sorry, YU ...I was just thinking, I didn't know I got here and lost track of time."

And that was the time they both realized the feelings they had for each other, but never talked about it then.

Things are like that whenever ZZ's on his "overthinking" moments. Yu made himself responsible looking for ZZ every time he's "lost." And he talked the thing with ZZ's P.A. too. That one of them should always be with ZZ, just enough distance, not to evade ZZ's privacy too much.

The worst thing happened was when the series got banned from airing and so as the two of them. Ban to be seen together in public, in social and media events.

ZZ just disappeared and no one knew his where about.  Except for his P.A. of course. Good thing, ZZ just isolated himself on his ancestral house, out of the city, by the ocean. 

For days, P.A. witnessed how ZZ drowned himself in thinking. How ZZ cried in silence. Looking afar but seeing nothing. P.A. kept his distance but never left ZZ. He waited until ZZ's ready to talk everything out.

"I can't take this anymore." This is what the P.A.'s anticipated. ZZ to open up and talk. He listened as ZZ burst out everything and cried after.

"Will you get Yu for me?" At lasts...

"Of course, I will." P.A. winked at ZZ. "I was just waiting for U to ask me."

ZZ and Yu's P.A.s was always in contact and updating each other about the dudes.

 Yu was suffering the same way as ZZ. But he handled the issue in facile ways. He has to be strong for a certain someone he knows "might" need him in time. And that time has come.

ZZ ran through Yu's arms the moment their eyes met.

"Babe, sshhh, it's alright now. I'm here." Yu locked ZZ into his tight embraced, kissed ZZ's hair.

ZZ lost it, tears fell and hugged Yu with the same intensity.

"I'm sorry, Yu"

"I'm sorry. I'm being liked this"

"I'm sorry I made everyone worry. I made Yu worry. I'm so sorry, Yu."

"Baby, please don't cry anymore. I'm already here."

Yu let ZZ rest in his arms, calming him through his caresses and hearing out  ZZ's whines.

Yu lifted ZZ's chin and kissed his puffed teary eyes as the sobbing subsided.

"Are U done whining Babe?" Yu teased.

ZZ chuckled, laid his head on Yu's chest.

"I'm sorry too. I let you suffered alone. I was having a hard time too. I thought it was the best way for us to have some space and handle the issue on our each own ways."

"U just don't know, t'was the most fvckin' worst days of my life. Not seeing U and not being with U on our darkest days."

"It was hard for me to coped up without U. But I kept telling myself that I have to be strong 'coz I know this time will come eventually. That my ZZ babe will be needing me and will reach out for me."

ZZ nods, looked up and kissed Yu's jaw.

"ZZ baby, promise me, U won't shut me out anymore."

"I'm begging U, please don't locked yourself anywhere without me."

ZZ held Yu's arm and reached for the other's hand to entwined with his.

"I promise.. If U promise U won't leave me."

"Of course, I won't leave you. I won't go anywhere without you." Yu kissed ZZ hand.

"I'd do anything for U despite how much U piss me off."

"Go away!" ZZ pushed Yu.

"I'm just kidding, Babe." Yu pulled ZZ back on his arms and pecked on ZZ's lips.

"Give me one single reason why I shoudn't leave U?" Yu brushing his hand at ZZ's arm.

"...because Yu love me." ZZ breathe into Yu's mouth and licked Yu's lower lip.

"C'mere." Yu let ZZ sit on his lap facing him.

"So, are we together now?" Yu wrapped his arms around ZZ's waist.

"Aren't we yet?" ZZ pulled Yu's collar, met his lips for a deep kiss. "I love Yu."

The two P.A.s clinked their wine glasses exasperated but thrilled at the moment.

"Fuck love." The duo laughed.

That "fuck love" is a "such love" for almost 4 years now.