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If lisa had to find the exact same words to describe her state in the past few days her choices were multiple actually .
pathetic , pitiful , regretful , emotional , terrible , horrible ,depressed , awful , numb , sorrowful , i mean you get what i mean right ?
If you asked her it was the worst feeling in the world , it was like standing in a sore point in the middle of the road not knowing whère to go , you can't come back because you made it here ? Why waste the efforts , and you can't move ahead because you also don't know what's waiting for you at the end .
Actually not just that , while you're standing in the middle you start contemplating things , things you've never considered before or practically things you were afraid to think of , then you start banging your head against every wall that exist for your dumbness .
Why the fuck haven't i thought of that before ?
How was i that blind ?
I don't even have the right to be mad .
It was like that for lisa .
Locking her self in her room for the past few days just laying in her bed wrapping herself with multiple covers trying to seek some safety , only the sound of her hiccups and sobs echoing in the room .
she had the time to have all the thinking in the world , things that never came to her mind before actually , maybe because she was running all day between college and work and her friends that she didn't have the time , or maybe because she was afraid so she always shrugged it off at the back of her mind , or maybe that she couldn't consider it possible until facts had to hit her in the face .
fucking idiot .
Replying the scene again and again in her mind she came to the some conclusions :
1- she's a dumb bitch , yes i know that the author said this many times that it started to get boring but hey ..this time she wasn't a dumb bitch because she clumsly stambled in the middle of the hallway and fell on her butt infront of her crush and the whole studental category in national seoul university nor because her crush kept catching her eye raping him in the cafeteria until he thought she's some kind of a stalker
no, this time she was a dumb bitch for a completely different reason , she was dumb because she always protected herself from seeing things clearly
she didn't have any chance
How many times she said this since the beginning of the book ? Right , many .
But she never truely let it sink in her mind , she still had that hope burning in her chest , and that what shoked her to the core when she saw him dancing with onther girl in the party , the disappointment .
She never considered the possibility that jungkook will someday find a girl , i mean duh , he was a whole meal The complete form of a 10/10 guy , many were crawling behind him and ofcourse it was certain he will chose one , a 22 years old perfectly healthy young man , surly he wants to fuck , like ..
