AA love story

dannys point of view....

i sat looking at the rest of the gang. the were all down and out.. they had all had a wide night and were now sleeping off the affects of it. Sam had his arm around James and he was cuddled up to him in one bed and Cam slept in the single bed alone.. i looked over at Ben who was sleeping soundly next to me.. he always looks so cute while he sleeps and i frowned as i recalled the events of earlier on last night...

Ben had been drinking pretty badly and was more than a little tipsy to say the least and had started to be an ass. He decided first of all he would start to dance with a girl in the local night club we were in... She wanted him to go back to hers but he saw the flaws in that idea so he started dancing alone and told her where to stick that idea. Once she left him alone he decided to have some more shots.. he asked me to join him but because we are on tour i dont drink anymore so i refused.. He then came up with an idea of a game.. kissing! you have to kiss someone without touching them and the first person to touch the other loses.. the winner then gets to do whatever they like to the loser.. at first i said no but the others were game so after a while i agreed. Cam and James were first up so me, Sam and Ben sat together and watched that one.. Cam lost that.. after about thirty seconds he wrapped his arms around James.. after that James pulled away and started laughing... Then james and Sam had a go... James lost that.. he put his hands on Sams arse after about five seconds... Sam smiled and kisses james again afterwards and they ended up snogging... Then came mine and Bens turn.. we started to kiss eachother but something felt wrong about the kiss.. it didnt feel real. it was just a silly game Ben made up in his drunken state.. it meant nothing.. if he was going to kiss me then i wanted it to be real. to mean something... i pulled away from ben but he wrapped him arms around my waiste and started to snog me.. i tryed to pull away again but he would let me.. i sighed and pecked his lips and pulled away for the third time.. this time he let me.. Sam looked at me con-fused because he knew how i felt about ben.. i shool my head and went to the bar for another drink. When i returned i sat by Cam and i noticed Ben kept looking at me.. Why was he doing that? i opened ny mouth to question it but i stopped myself.. some things are best not known i told myself.. For the rest of the night i couldnt bring myself to look at Ben in the face..

After afew hours we called it a night. i looked at the time 3:00am... "where are we all stopping" Cam asked earnestly.. we all glared at him.. why did he have to book us into a one roomed hotel suite?.. eventullay we decided that James and Sam should sleep in one bed because they looked pretty cosy, Cam should sleep in the single and me and ben together.. they all fell asleep in no time.. all acept me!

"Danny"? i looked over to see who was speaking and found it was Sam.. "whats up"? i asked him although i already knew what he was going to ask me.

"why did u pull away from Ben when he kissed u? I thought u like him?" i looked away from him and sighed... "i did.. i do"... i trailed off into silence..

"then whats the problem"?!

"my problem is was drunk. he wont remember.. it meant nothing to him.. if hes going to kiss me i want it to be real... to mean something!" i felt tears threaten to run down my face so i rubbed my eyes pretending to be on the bink of sleep. Sam got out of his bed and hugged me tightly.. "well tell him how you feel"!

"i cant! i cant tell him how i think of him when i go to sleep at night, when i wake up in the morining! i cant tell him when i here his voice he lights up the entire room.. i cant tell him i love him more than i can ever discribe.. i cant tell him i would take a bullet for him, take a blade for him, take a gun shot for him just to keep him safe"! the tears that were threatning to come tickle down my cheek freely.. Sam hugs me tighter and holds me close.. "well its a good job i recorded it"!

"what"! i grap his hands and pin him to the floor and just as i am about to grab this phone someone comes up behind me.. i know without having to look that its Ben.. i know that touch anywhere! "erm guys, u know this looks seriously wrong dont u?" i turn around and laugh, forgetting just for a moment about the recording. ben hugs me from behind and i smile again...

another voice interupts are hug and i stand frozen glued to Sams phone screen but no close enough to reach it.. i try to grab the phone but Ben pushes me back onto the Ben and pins me down so he can listen because he knows the voice on the recording is mine.. it tell all of how i feel for ben, how i felt last night and of how much i love him..

i manage to break away from Ben and run outside of the hotel by the pool and start to cry more than i thought possiable. How could Sam do this.. He promised me he would never tell Ben! I hate him! when Ben saw that his face.. it was so shocked.. i cant stand him coming out here and mentioning it because he doesnt like me in that way so it will make it so awkward. This will ruin our friendship! How could he..

"Danny"? a voice from behind me interupts me train of thoughts.. its Ben.. Great!.. just what i need.. i try to wipe the tears in my eyes away before he comes over.. too late... He walks over to me and sees i'm crying.. "Please dont cry Danny"? he takes his hands and places them.on my face and turns me to face him and he wipes the tears that i couldnt wash away. i flinch and pull back. I cant stand this level of contact.. i know hes meaning it to be kind but it makes me feel worse.. "Danny"? i turn to face Ben again. "Is it true about what you said to Sam? in that recording?" i stay silent and only nod to answer his question.. "Sam only did that because, well, he knows how i feel. about you... he blushes and then continutes.. he wanted to show.me that so that i know you like me back!" he takes my face in his hands again and this time he kisses me and i dont pull away but instead i return it. It feels amazing. "I love you Danny"

"i love you too Ben" and then after those four words we sit cuddled up in eachothers arms looking at eachother under the full moon and smile at eachother.. never wanting the moment to end.