Surrogate Sequel: Uncovering The Moments [Larry Stylinson]

I Told You to be Patient

I guess the memories of this place would be the most cherishable. Christmas, Birthdays, and what-not. As I stared at my surroundings nothign felt right. I felt so out of place. This wasn't helping me. I sat on the couch and watched my grandmother speak to my parents. She was pretty, dark hair and light skin.

Then there was my aunt, Lottie was her name I was told, she had wavy blonde hair and a kind smile. She always seemed to smile when she saw me. I wish I knew why. I was sat on the sofa listening. I had nothing to contirbute to the conversation, I had no idea what they were talking about.

"Em, do you want to go get a bite to eat?" Lottie asked as she grinned at me. I nodded quickly. She and I set out, with winter coats and scarfs. Grandma and Lou's orders. We walked to a place she called Nandos. I don't remember liking this place, but she said I love it.

"How are you coping? It must be really hard not to remember." I shrugged.

"It's alright." I responded putting a smile on my face. I think she could tell it was fake. I don't know why it was fake, but this smile felt like me. Felt right. I ate in silence and tried to recall anything. I could remember feelings. Like when I saw Louis I felt resent and remorse.

It was weird. When I saw Harry I was happy but also felt slightly jealous when he interacted with anyone else, especially Louis. Alex was a completely different story. When he was around I felt comfortable and at ease and mostly I felt familiarairty. He was the one thing I could remember when I woke up.

"Whose Eleanor?"

I don't know where the name came from or how I remembered, but I did. It just popped into my head and tumbled from my lips. Lottie's face changed as she looked me over and thought out an answer. Finally she sighed and stood up. She dropped bills on the table and led me out of the diner.

"Who told you about Eleanor?"

"I just rememebered her." I responded sounding a bit defensive. I didn't do it on purpose, it just kind of happened.

"I don't think it's my place to tell you about her."

Now I was getting nervous. Was Eleanor my mum? Had she beaten me? Or maybe my best mate. My life was already sort of crazy. What if she were my grandma who went bonkers and ended up in the loony bin? I walked beside Lottie as all these things ran through my mind.

All of a sudden I got a bit of an ache in my head and I could hear someone saying 'Come on Lovebug! You're going to be late!'. I put a hand on my head and squeezed my eyes shut as scenes of Harry and Lou standing at the bottom of the stairs filled my vision. I bounced down the stairs and I passed the mirror in the hall. I looked to be about twelve.

"Lottie, Lottie, I've remembered something!"

"What?"

"My first performance. It was when I was twelve and I sang Hey There Delilah because Louis loved the song and Harry said I sang it beauitfully."

"Harry and Louis will be so happy to hear the news!" We walked inside and I told my parents what I'd remember. Then I thought back to the dream I'd had on the plane. Was that a memory? It felt like it'd happened, but I wasn't completely sure.

I hung out with my cousins. Lottie's kids were about my age and Fizzy's were younger than me. It was oddly nice to be surrounded by these strangers who really weren't. My Grandma recounted stories of all the mischief I'd gotten into when I was little. It seemed Alex, Marley and I were quite the trio.

"You three were so out of hand! Remember the time they wrecked Harry's kitchen on Christmas?" Chuckles ran through the people surrounding.

"I just about died, but I held down my anger because Emerson is my baby." Harry kissed my head and I felt happiness. A smile fell into place on my lips. But it just felt heavy on my face.

It was tiresome smiling all the time. But this was my family why wouldn't I be happy to see them? I sat back into the couch and tried to sort out my feelings. They were jumbled. But one was clearly there. Discomfort and dislike. Why would I feel like that surrounded by people who I love and love me?

I furrowed my brow.

Maybe they made me angry just before I lost my memory? No I doubt that. Alex would have told me. But there was something they weren't telling me. Like sometimes when I was just with Louis and Harry there was tension. I wonder why?

I spared a glance at Louis he was watching me. I looked back down.

Something fishy was going on and I was determined to find out what.

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