[NCT - TenWin] I like head before the sex, don't blame me

I like head before the sex, don't blame me

A/N: Title from the song in the video.

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Sicheng stared down the mug standing on his desk. It was halfway filled with a dark liquid that he knew was black tea. As much as he'd wanted to study, his mind kept wandering off. He'd tried staying away from his phone, but he knew he wouldn't be able to work any more anyway, so he reached out for it and switched it on.

Saturdays were always kind of dangerous for Sicheng. Usually, he slept in and spent his afternoon studying, always trying to avoid having to go out and actually socialize, he did that enough on the weekdays. Eventually he'd always give in to the temptation though, actually looking at the messages directed at him that were asking him to go out and join someone's plans for the night.

It was not that he didn't like parties. But every party he went to, he saw people flirting, kissing and making out, getting it on in front of everyone's eyes, not caring about being seen. And that made him a little bitter. He couldn't really enjoy parties like he used to before he lost his virginity after one.

94 new messages

He unlocked his phone to see his friends making plans for the night in the group chat, Taeil asking for the notes he'd made in the lesson and another message from Ten that he didn't want to read.

Ten.

Sicheng thought that if he just ignored him long enough, just left his messages unread and kept away from him and his friends, Ten might stop clouding his thoughts and disappear from his mind and maybe even stop existing. If he didn't know Ten, his life would be so much easier and there would be so much less to worry about.

But the truth was that without Ten, there would surely be something missing. He'd gotten dependent on him, too attached for it to be healthy. Getting involved with Ten was the best and at the same time worst thing that had happened to him since he got into college.

Now he stared at his phone screen, a hollow feeling in his chest, knowing he wouldn't be able to resist opening the message. He couldn't believe how ridiculous he was being.

Quitter, quitter, quitter.

Today, 04:21 pm

Hey

You goin' to that party at Taeyong's tonite?

If Ten was coming, Sicheng definitely wasn't. He was sure he wouldn't be able to stand Ten acting like he barely knew him when actually, he was the person Sicheng trusted most.

05:37 pm

Dunno. Prolly not. I dont feel like going out tbh

Two minutes later, Sicheng's phone screen lit up with another message and he dreadfully opened it, only to see that Yuta had messaged him.

Yuta-hyung <3

05:39 pm

Shall I come pick you up later so we can go to taeyongs together? :*

05:40 pm

I dont want to go

05:40 pm

U sure? Even Taeil's coming, its gonna be sm fun! Is it bc of ten? :/

05:41 pm

Partly