Crimson Lights

Confessions

Finally confessing her feelings to Samar, Anna stood there nervously, wondering how would Samar react to her words of love.

"You're behaving like a child!"

"At least I'm not running away," Anna countered.

Samar was now standing in front of her, her eyes aglow with a kind of fiery anger that Anna had never seen before – yet oddly enough, she was happy to see them. She was happy to see that the fight within Samar is still alive.

"I know it's impossible to be here forever on the pretense of being with you. I also know that my jealousy would consume me eventually – I can't stand you being with all those men, especially after what I had witnessed before."

"Wait –," Samar cut her off. "What do you mean you had witnessed before? What are you talking about?"

Realising her slip, Anna continued cautiously, knowing there's no going back now that she had let that out. "During the first few days, I got lost on one occasion. I was walking around in the dark and well, I heard some noise that made me curious. I looked through one of the doors and saw you ... with a man."

"I see. Was that the reason why you became confused and curious as to why someone would want to work here?"

"It's partially the reason. What I meant was," Anna hurried on, wanting to stay off from that topic and return back to the issue in front of them. "Even though it hurts to see you with them, it hurts more when I think about being away from you. If you were to ask me if I'd rather share you than have none of you, then, of course, I'd be willing to share, regardless of the hurt."

Stunned speechless, Samar simply stared at Anna, unsure what to reply to her.

"You're still young..." Samar began but was cut off immediately.

"Please do not use that line on me. Yes, I'm younger than you – I recall you mentioned before that we're six years apart in age – but that doesn't mean I'm not capable of thinking for myself."

"That's not what I was going to say. You're still young; you'd find someone else eventually."

"Why search again when I already found the one that I truly love?"

"You've been reading too much of Karmen's manga," Samar said dryly.

"Perhaps – but let me ask you this; you left your family because they were forcing you to do something that you didn't want to do for the second time. What makes you think I'd be happy with my family after everything that Patrick had informed us? Aren't they the reason why I'm in such a predicament in the first place? How can I trust them, especially when I have no memory of them? Why do the rules differ for me?"

Well, she had a point.

"It's not that it differs; as Patrick mentioned, they're still looking for you – which means they care. Mine didn't, even though they knew I left with Madam. They no longer cared; yours still does. As to whether you'll be happy or not, I believe that is up to you. There was no guarantee that you'd be happy here as well, but look where we are today."

"That's because of you. I fell for you from the moment I met you – you know that. You'd be lying if you say you didn't, Samar."

Of course, she knew. She couldn't forget the way Anna had looked at her that night that they met; full of awe and warmth, as if they knew each other from before.

"You kept staring at me; big, round puppy eyes full of emotions. How could I have not known?" Samar asked, mortification making her voice sound low. A faint blush was making itself up her cheeks.