The First Kiss
It was June 6th. It was neither of our firsts. I wasn't sure if he wes planning on doing this or if he just got caught up in the moment. Either way, I had no idea it was going to happen that night. I knew it would happen one day. We were laying in my bed together. Watching some stupid movie he put on. Some fictional documentary. I always hated the movies he chose. Neither of us were really watching the movie. We were just talking to each other. He started getting touchy. Everytime I would try to get on my phone or pull the comforter on me he'd either tickle me or take the covers off. Playful flirting is what it started off as. Harmless. I wish it would've stayed like. Maybe if he never kissed me I wouldn't still be so emotionally attached to him. The playful flirting went on for a while until we were both just laying next to each other again, kinda/kinda not watching the movie. I felt him looking at me. I turned my head towards his and he grabs my face. My hearts going about 1000000 miles an hour at this point. "Kiss me" is all he said. I could barely even breath. It felt like I was sitting there for hours. "I'm scared to" That was not a lie but I wasn't necessarily scared. Just nervous. "There's nothing to be scared of. I promise" He leans in after that. I don't pull away. The kiss lasts about 20 seconds. I remember it like it was yesterday. I can still feel his lips on mine. After that I was blushing like crazy and I buried my head into my sheets. He laughs and says "whaaat" I answer back to him "I'm not looking at you" still shocked and close to speechless over what had just happened "I wanna see your face" he says I look up and see him smiling at me. His eyes looking into mine. This is the moment I realized I loved him. He kisses me again. This one is shorter but it feels more passionate than the last one. He gets up and goes to the bathroom. I can barely breathe I'm just so in shock. He comes back in the room and stands in front of my bed with his arms out. I get up and hug him. Hugging him made me feel so safe. I miss it so much.
