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"I'm fucked- MY LIFE is fucking over, how am I going to tell my mum about-"
"Y/N STOP, it's just one really bad grade; you'll get over it. Stop worrying so much." my friend Katie interrupted me. She actually interrupts me all the time. I hate that bitch. Actually no I love her, she's my best friend and she helped me getting through every single drama I've witnessed over the past few months. Sitting there eating lunch felt different today. Not just because the lunch lady was sick and coughed so much, the bacteria literally went right in my chicken sandwich. It was just a very odd day.
I felt sick to my stomach after getting back my exam. Telling my mum about how much of a loser I am? Rather not. I honestly just wanted to go home and snuggle with my well-known girlfriend aka my pillow. Does that sound sad?
I guess not.
"She's right, y/n, it's only one bad grade and I know you're smart enough to pass the next english exam" my friend Yeonjung said. She's always been the one to cheer me up even if, sometimes, I can be a real dick to her. To be fair, she's beautiful. She looks like one of those famous singers from korea...what are they called again? Whatever. Nevertheless, I've had a crush on Yeonjung for over 2 years.
Katie had to go to class.
Yeongjung and I stayed at the table for a little while.
"y/n, can I ask you something?"
"uh...yeah sure go ahead." I panicked a little
"Could you pass me the salt?"
"Uhm of course-"
it's not like I expected her to ask me to go to prom. Haha. No. Of course not. hAhA.
But then again, even if she wanted to go to prom with me, she'd expect me to ask her first.
How do I say it...I am awkward. I can't even ask the lunch lady for more rice or sauce. Did I mention she's my actual aunt?
Yes, the type of person who'd rather pee themselves than to ask others to stand up on a train.
"Are you coming to my birthday party on, Saturday?....y/n"
I was too busy daydreaming again.
"Y/N"
"huhh uh uhm, what?"
"Are you gonna come to my homecoming party?"
"Oh of course, I'd love to...I'm sorry, it's been a confusing day"
She said nothing after that; just smiled at me.
Then she touched my arm and simply said "Everything's going to be alright, I believe in you"
I was stunned; when she touched me I could literally feel my blood flowing through my veins. Do I really love her? Is it just a friend type of thing to feel that way?
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"Y/N, BRO STOP SINGING I'M TRYING TO STUDY" my sister belted all the way up to my room. "YOU MAKE ME FEEL SPEC-" I started singing even louder just to annoy her ass. She never shuts down whenever I study so I always love to give it back to her. Also todays the day of all days. Yeonjungs party. I had to calm myself down a bit. I was so scared and excited. There's gonna be a lot of people, pretty girls, not so pretty people, aka me.
and there'll be Yeonjung. The beautiful, hot Yeo- NO. I have to stop thinking about her. She's my friend. I can't make my nor her life even more stressful with my feelings towards her.
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My phone started ringing.
It's Katie. I won't pick up the phone though.
Way too stressed out.
The party starts in like an hours and I still have to get dressed. *knock knock* "yEs?!"
"Have you seen my jacked anywhere?"
my sister, again. "Why would I take your ugly jacked?" She slammed the door and left again.
I did take her jacked; gave it to Yeonjung because she never brings a jacked with her and is cold. I'm such a good friend. Well. Friend.
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I hope they won't be mad at me for being late.
I put on my casual black sweater and left my house.
It's freezing cold outside and I saw my neighbor decorating his house for Christmas.
This evening felt weird again. Just like the day I got my exam back. My stomach literally turned when I arrived to her house.
It looked surprisingly empty.
The only thing I could hear was some music playing.
I then knocked on their door. Nobody opened.
The music stopped.
I remembered the time when Yeonjung first showed me her home. She forgot her keys and we had to get in through one of her windows leading straight to her living room.
I knocked again and this time I got worried.
I went to the window just to sneak around a little.
It was open.
It's like 14 degrees.
Why on earth would she leave the window open.
Worried me, climbed in just to check if she's okay. To my surprise, the fireplace was on and it looked all cosy and warm. I closed the window behind me.
"Take a seat" I heard a voice coming from the staircase.
I jumped for a second. Man, was I scared.
"Yeonjung?"...
She came down the stairs in a beautiful dress.
I've seen it before. She wore it when I first met her.
"Are you going on a date?"
"Kind of"
"So uhm should I like, leave..?"
"No! I mean..not yet; he's not here yet"
"Yea but why would you say it's a party-"
"Let's go for a walk till I wait"
"But why-"
"No questions!" She started to smile a little. The little smirk she gives people whenever she confused them.
I put on my jacked again and we went for a walk down her street. The streets were kind of empty and all her neighbors already decorated their house.
Listen, she's gorgeous everyday but holy-
Today she was literally glowing.
I tried so hard to keep my eyes off of her.
We stopped at a bench under a tree full of snow.
"So who's the date?"
I was really upset at this point. What did she eve need me here for? I'm so sick of just being the friend who has to listen to every story of every boy she's ever dated. I had enough.
"y/n, I have to tell yo-"
"No Yeonjung, you listen! I'm so sick of all this, how do you not see it? I'm sick of you slipping through my fingers every time you meet someone new."
At this point a tear fell down her face.
"To see you cry makes it even worse. Wanna know why? Wanna know why I can't stop thinking about you? Wanna know why I start shaking every time you look at me? *now I started crying* IT IS BECAUSE I fucking love-"
She cut me off.
Wrapped my hands around her neck.
She kissed me.
The sky started to make every star brighter.
The world stopped turning for a while.
"You are the date, y/n"
"There is no party, no other people, no date.
Just you and me. I'm in love with you. I tried to hide it and make it seem like everything's the usual. But I fell for you. Over and over again. I literally stumbled." She still cried but had to giggle. She looked so happy.
And that's how I finally came home to a feeling of safety. I felt at ease.
We walked back home after talking about all our experiences of being in love with each other.
It's up to you how the night turned out at her place.
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Thank you so much for reading the entire story. Now, to the message of it.
There's good things to come in your life.
You're not alone and your life may seem scary at time but I promise you it gets better.
Take time to love yourself and if you can't right now, remember there's people who do. If I knew you personally I would too.
