What is "FEAR" ?
FEAR IS AN UNPLEASANT EMOTION CAUSED BY THE THREAT OF DANGER, UNEASINESS, ANXIETY, PAIN, HARM AND BEING AFRAID OF SOMEONE OR SOMETHING.
Can FEAR kill you? Yes it can!!!
Fear can be very intense that you even feel like dying
Because of fear she started having:
PANIC ATTACKS
SHORTNESS OF BREATH
HER HEART POUNDED HARDER AT TIMES
SHE FELT LIKE PASSING OUT MORE THAN ONCE
SHE FELT LIKE GIVING UP ON HERSELF & LIFE
INSOMNIA (INABILITY TO SLEEP)
THE INABILITY TO THINK CLEARLY OR REMEMBER THINGS MAJORITY OF THE TIMES.
She also became a very angry, moody & miserable person because of fear.
She try to make God and prayer be the center of her life because he knows it all he alone really calms her.
She is afraid to walk from work at nights, take taxi more time because they are taking away women and raping them.
She is always walking and watching her surroundings whether it be day or night.
She used to be afraid of even leaving the yard much less going to work.
She use to even walk with a knife in her bag to defend herself if anyone tries to harm her in anyway.
She always wanted to feel safe and guarded.
Even in her own home she has always wished she could wear clothing she felt comfortable in but she couldn't.
If she wore tight fitting clothing and a man tries to engage in sexual conversations, she used to become so angry and cuss them out because it always reminds her of the pain and hurt she is carring.
Pain is one thing but living or even being around the person who caused it is not a good thing it messes with your mind body and soul.Makes you emotionally and mentally broken.
She thought she was healing from her pass hurt and pain when she realized
If she argues with the person she feel like talking about all he did to her, if she's in the house and going to shower all rapped in her towel and see him she would old on to her towel tight as possible so it doesn't pull apart.
She's afraid to be alone in the house with him, she usually would go out and come back late when everyone is sleeping ,she really tries hard to avoid every single encounter alone with him.
If she remembered or saw any of the other persons who had abused her, she would start feeling sick and felt like she was having a mental breakdown.
She tries to encourage herself from day to day to continue be strong and lift herself up.Its not easy but no matter what circumstances she faces she is willing to fight to the end. She has always been a very strong woman.
She once heard someone saying that "Fear" really means
Forget everything and run or Face everything and rise.
She decides to be a victor and not a victim anymore, face her fears and rise.
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THE BRIDGES I HAD TO CROSS
Non-FictionThis book is about a young lady who was sexually and mentally abused by a very close family member at a young age..She felt like she couldn't go on, she had no where or no one to turn to.she became very depressed, suppressed and had a very low estee...
