Sizzling Hot! ✔ (English)

Chapter 8: The Feeling (Unedited)

CHAPTER 8: THE FEELING

        I was just standing and is dumbfounded outside the condo. I don't know what I'm going to do. I haven't felt that he loves me already. Why does I haven't seen that? Am I that numb or should I say that I don't have the guts to love someone else. I did, long ago. I had many admirations or crushes, yes it's normal. Fling? I had too and that's not just a fling because it came to the point that there's something that happened between us.

        There were many boys that have came into my life. Many also have touched me. But, I don't see love even when we're making. The only person that for sure I know that I love is Jared. Only him and now? I don't know if I love him back when he came back.

        Yes, I got shocked when he arrived here in the Philippines and even contacting me. I got mesmerized by the way he look. He is much sexier, more mature, and more professional. I really admire him the most and I like him even more.

        I hoped that there will be 'us' but there's none. I'm just friends for him or maybe friends with benefits. I laugh to myself those days. That's why I engaged into men doing that thingy, romance. I don't really love. He's the only man I love. I was alwayshis listener. If I would ask him, He always had a boyfriend and the last girl he liked, he got busted. I'm just there giving him hope and giving him sympathy. I know that I don't have a chance on him. Even though I tried to make him happy, there's none. It's not working.

        Until he left Philippines for good maybe. I really don't know the reason. I was wondering because he couln't be reached anymore until I know that he was in the States.

        And the more that I don't want to love because I don't believe. Even mom and dad that is married for so long and had two offspring, they separated. How much more if still a lover? Soon, it will not last long.

        I thought of myself that if there's someone I love, I don't wnna engage into such relationship. It is just temporary, fairy tales? No. I don't believe. Since mom and dad separated, that's the thing more that I don't wanna be into that relationship.

        

        Anyway, tomorrow will be the wedding of my sister and I am needed there. I'm the maid of honor and Jared is my best man. Tss! Really my mom's work. But it's okay, He's still my crush.

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        The wedding has started. I am so happy with my sister. At last, she's already married. I am hoping the best for her. I am hoping that they won't be separated. I really don't believe in love but I'm still hoping that CAitlyn and Jerick's relationship will last or work really. I love my sister, super! We're the best of friends. I must really say. 

        I was smiling looking at them two taking their vows, their promises. Until, the wedding has ended. It's time to see who's gonna catch the flowers. Well, I'm single so I joined. My sister is such a thrill. She's just heading the bouquet back and forth to the different directions and boom! It's going on my way. I don't have any choice but to catch it.

        And it's tha boys' turn. It's just funny bevause they areeager to catch. At first, I though that it's someone who could catch but it was Jared. Oh men! Him! Okay. Just be calm.

        When he went towards my direction

"It's a long time since I got this" he smirked while almost all of them were so noisy and matching us

"HIGHER!"

"BY MOUTH"

        Oh geez! Why am I not comfortable? Maybe the didn't know that I have a bitch side. I am shy, sister and my mom is pushing me to him always. As in. I loved him but now? I don't know. Maybe so admire is what I felt to him.

        After awhile, the partners were already dancing. We danced with my sister's groom when mom interrupted us. She let me dance to Jared. Mom! You're so obvious! Maybe he would thought that I like him so much.

        Why am I afraid? He already knows that but it's the past. Mom really wants Jared for me and I don't know what is with him that my mom really likes him for me. Maybe just the fact that she knew that I had a crush with this min that she knew that I liked him the most!

         we were just dancing slowly as the music turned sweeter.

"Ally, I got this. You know, I wanna start here in the Philippines" I don't know why he is saying this. I'm just listening.

"And I wanna start it with you" I got startled with his confessions to me. I was still dumbfounded. Start in the Philippines with me? I could feel the mixed emotions. He is confessing and I can see that my mom at the other side was smiling at us.

"Jared, I don't know what to say. I-" he cut my sentence

"I am not requiring you to answer suddenly. I can wait and you know. I miss you so much! Your touch, your presence, you. I mean, the way that we, you know that. It's somehow fresh in my mind and you know" I don't know how will I respond to him. 

        We were still dancing slowly. I know what he meant, the romance thingy. I remembered it. His my first but I don't know.

        I was still unable to think clearly until I remembered the guy. He will leave today. Today. He contacted me for the last time tonight that this is day is his leave.

        I couldn't thing. I felt restless. I loosened Jared's arms on me and say..

"What happened? I remembered it. Yes! But the feeling? Sorry Jared. i should go now. I am so sorry" I ran and the visitors wondered even my mom and Caitlyn.

        Mom, I'll be back. I promise. I mouthed her.

        I hurriedly went to my car and drove it fast. I must be there. I must not be late. Good thing that it was not traffic. I am thankful because i have already arrived at his condo.

        But only to find out that he went already to his car bringing his luggage and always looking at his wristwatch. He drove fast. Oh no! I can't lose him. I beeped but he dodn't hear me. I really can't afford to lose him by now. I am crying. I couldn't reach him.

        He's too far away and it's traffic. I tried contacting him. Yes! It rings but he didn't answered my calls. I had lose my hope. Is this really our goodbye?

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        Epilogue will be the next. I'm gonna miss you dearers. Mmuah!

- kjanepurple