Forgotten

I've been sitting out here for an hour now. I can't bring myself to open my car door. The feeling I have just wont let me do it. It feels like I'm about to get sick. Maybe I might be coming down with something, but I know that's not the reason. Yesterday was my 17th birthday and Brandi and I had gotten into a huge fight. So I know when I was in the door it's round two. My sister and I have not gotten along since our parents died car crash. And when the Will was read to us Brandi went crazy. Our parents left every bit of their money to me and the house to Brandi.

Thankfully Brandi was 18 (I was 13) so we didn't have to go into foster care. But even though we were grieving at the time she still managed to make my life horrible. But when I turned 15 I learned how to stand up for myself. So ever since then we've been going back and fourth with each other.

It's been four years now and shes still steaming mad. Maybe because she has grown to be a very bitter person. I wonder what goes on in her head for her able to be that cold. But now I need to think about how to get up the courage to get out my car. Some how my hand found it's way to the the handle and turned it open. Once I steeped outside my car the feeling got worse. I had to bend down and catch my breath. I slowly walked up the drive way to the door.

As I opened the door I smelled freshly baked cookies. Any other time I would love this smell, but knowing my sister baked them is stomach churning. I set my things down and followed the smell to the kitchen. When i walked into the kitchen saw Brandi getting the cookies out the oven. I think she heard me because she whipped around with huge smile on her face.

"Yay your just in time! All we have to do now is let the cookies cool down a bit," she said sliding the cookies off the pan onto a plate.

I just stood there with my mouth wide open. I can't believe what is happening right now. Was this what my instinct was warning me about. That my sister has finally gone off the deep end. I was to surprised to say anything. All the while she stood there smiling like an mad man I stood there with my mouth wide open like an idiot.

I'm probably dreaming right now, that would make me feel better. She went to hang up her apron and grab something to drink. Two cups, oh crap. I don't really think I could handle her actually showing that she shows some type of love for me. She sat down at the dining room table pouring milk into the cups. Then she went a got the cookies and motioned me to come and sit down. I slowly walked over to the chair and sat in the one farthest away from her.

"Sapphire now I know this all seems weird to you but it's time for me to mature up and end this feud," she said biting into a cookie.

"Um what are you talking about?," I said still dumbfounded.

"Okay so what I mean is I want us to go back to being sisters maybe even friends, anything other than what we are now. I know mom and dad wouldn't want us to be like this. And I just feel really bad about what happened yesterday," she said moving closer to me.

"I don't think I could really ever forgive you for what you've done and said to me over the years. You made my life horrible! How could you even be like that?" I said getting angry.

"I know I'm so sorry. And I know that things will never been the same with us again because of my actions. But we both contributed to doing that and we needed to grow up a long time ago. So I'm going to be the bigger person and apologize.Because I love you and we will always be family Sapphire," she said getting up and hugging me.

"Okay I guess I'll try," I said grabbing for a cookie.

She and I just sat there in silence for the next five minutes in silence. I had too much on my mind to talk about my day or my feelings. I think I was getting more angry because she thought that she could fix everything with freshly baked cookies and milk. But I don't think there's anything she could ever do to fix what she has done. She has made my life hell for the past four years. But right now I don't feel like screaming and yelling at her.