Unlocked My Heart

The things I have done, The life I've lived is nothing without you now, and yet I still wonder how I survived without you beside me.

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My breath caught and I felt helpless. How could 'I' feel...Helpless?! He smiled at me as I turned my head away, hoping that he didn't notice me blushing. Once he had returned his attention to the screen in front of the class, I sighed a breath of relief. My gaze fell over on the projector, letting myself wander in my thoughts hoping to find the reason why I liked him.

'Can it be because I know he likes me back or... No... That isn't the reason...'

I glared at my paper, my hand did not want to write....But even if my hand had, my thoughts might've ended up scrawled on the parchment instead. I cast a sidelong glance at the window but I looked away abruptly.

'Was he looking at me?,' I wondered why he of all people would pay me the sort of attention that he did. The bell rang suddenly and turned my desk into a paper glazed surface.

"Sigh", of all times to let my mind wander. I scolded myself mentally for the lack of effort on my part. Not only was this the only class I had with him but, the only time where I felt utterly helpless. Opening my bag and putting my papers inside I took a bit longer than usual, thinking of him a bit as I did so. I looked up absentmindedly and noticed him again, so I quickly looked away and resumed to get up a leave the room. Each step I took felt like ages leaving me to wonder if he was watching me or not and if I was acting awkward. Soon enough the classes went by and the day came to a close at school and by the time i was walking to my locker from my last period, my mind wandered.

Absentmindedly I walked down the hall and passed him near the end while he was talking to a friend of his, I got nervous and then I finally decided to talk to him. I kept walking past him and then I slowed down and looked back a bit. My heart started beating faster and I got nervous at the thought of asking him to walk with me let alone getting his attention. I turned back towards him a bit abruptly and stopped only a few foot-steps away and said, "H... Hey, how're you doing?"

He turned around as he heard my words and it made my heart jump as he did. "Hey Alyssa," he said in his usual tone of interest. "Uhm... Do you wanna walk with me a bit? At least to where I have to wait to walk home," I asked him awkwardly half expecting him to say no or that he was too busy. To my surprise he said,"sure just give me a sec." He said bye to his friend and followed me as we walked close to me. Having him so close made me want to hug him for some reason... Yet I had no clue why I felt that way. I looked at him every few sentences and tried not to get awkward or blush so I talked about as much as I could before our short walk would end.