sexual tension (g!p)

J & B : say it anyway

Chapter Summary

Bea and Jhoana are best friends. They're both feeling the pressures of college and dating and all that comes with it and neither want to regret her first time. So they decide to experience it together, because the trust and love is already there.

Bea fidgeted with her pants on Jhoana's office chair. They were studying for a biology test for tomorrow, and Bea couldn't concentrate, for Jhoana's tirade had nothing to do with the animal kingdom whatsoever.

"I'm just saying, Bea. Most of the people in our year are no longer virgins." Jhoana said as she rolled on her bed to face Bea with a pleading look in her toffee eyes, shimmering with something Bea cannot identify.

"Isn't it better if we lose our virginity to each other? We've been best friends for what, ten years and... seven months?"

"Ten years and eight months..." Bea corrected softly as her fingers closed around the fabric of her pajama pants.

"Jho, I don't know... Ayaw mo bang maghintay muna? What about your plan to lose your virginity at twenty-five?"

"That plan is obsolete." Jhoana said firmly. She sat up and bobbed up and down on her soft bed.

"Bea, please. You're the only one I can trust with this.You're the one that I love the most, and ikaw yung best friend ko."

Jhoana's words, Bea knew, were meant to assure her, but of course, it never failed to do the opposite. Bea loved being Jhoana's friend, but she hated, more than that Basketball jock, Thirdy, being reminded that it was all she could ever hope to be.

"Jho-"

"Bago ka umayaw," Jhoana interrupted.

"Please hear me out. I want this with you, Bea. And seeing as you have the... equipment..." Bea groaned and stood up to step away from Jhoana.

"Please don't call it equipment like it's some farming tool. It's a part of me, okay?" She huffed in silent frustration and faced Jhoana.

"Fine, Sige na nga. On one condition."

"Kahit na ano!" Jhoana squealed with glee, bouncing up and down on her bed while she clapped her hands.

"Let me do it right." Bea said softly, with a smile that was meant to veil her bittersweet emotions.

"Date tayo, like we're lovers."

Jhoana scrambled off the bed and hugged Bea as tight as her lithe body could manage.

"I would love that."

Bea beamed and scooped Jhoana in her arms, twirling them around Jhoana's spacious room. Jhoana squealed and laughed, arms tight around Bea's neck, breath hitting her cheek.

"Great! How's next week sound?"
"Next week sounds amazing, Bea."

Bea frowned at her sharp features reflected against the mirror as she tied an emerald green skinny silk tie around her neck.

It was their date night, the night where they lose their virginities to each other, and Bea was far from ready. While yes, she did all the research, purchased the condoms from Deanna (a 24-pack of XL Magnums, just in case), made sure her parents won't be home until next weekend, and cleaned herself up thoroughly. But still, she wasn't ready.

She was terrified that she would not make a fantastic lover, the likes of which Jhoana deserved and more. Bea wanted to be more than a friend for Jhoana, but she knew. She just knew that it was an impossibility.

Still, Bea was willing to do this. If not for her, for Jhoana. Tucking her keys in her pockets, Bea stepped out of the house and headed to Jhoana's house.