When you tries to forget something but the whole universe tries to remind you of that particular memory , thing or person.
Dear diary
I know I am acting like a coward hiding from the one who hurt me but i cant take it anymore that night just not only took my life my everything but also gave me something but only for few days just so that i can live with another guilt . The guilt that i was not able to save my baby. Yes my baby that night arnav gave me a gift a someone who was just mine my only family but devi maiya took that from me I remenber that day......
Flashback
After I left the city with the memories of that black night. I went to shimla there I met my friend geet. Geet & his husband were the one who gave me shelter and who was there for me at that bad time. Geet knows everything about my love for arnav and also about that night. I tried to live again I tried to forget everything and move on. I started working in Maan's company. Its been 2weeks and I was still trying to forget everything but devi maiya had other plans and it happened again I was standing at the same place again. Yes I got pregnant with arnav baby And I knew at the moment that I will have something of my own I will also have a family but everything comes to end I gave birth to a baby girl yes my girl but she died after one year due to typhoid At the moment I knew that I will be alone forever and those memories of her will be with me.
Present
I fear about that if arnav comes to know how he will react will he be happy that she died or will be sad. I dont know and I just want to keep it a secret. A secret which is mine to cherish and cry about that I lost her. I know arnav is not going to leave me now he knows everything that shyam was at fault but he will not tell angily anything because he wants me to be alone. He just hate me so much that he wants to punish me without any reason. I am not going to leave now i will not be coward because I have nothing to loose neither a family neither my soul because I lost everything to him. I am getting the punishment to love him and there will be always a reminder of my love for him in form of my babies memory she was just like him.
