Poems And Lyrics

My Story

Sometimes I wonder what I ever did to life to deserve this... This pain... This gruesome, heart wrenching pain...Then I back track to when I was  younger and took everything for granted. I was naive, young, carefree, Happy... I was an average little girl. I then experienced half the pain I feel now. My parents first argument... I don't have many happy memories from the time my parents were married... Mostly fights... Bills not being met... Just simple easy stuff... Then the first divorce happened... I was still young and naive, hell I was clueless about what was happening to my family... I didn't UNDERSTAND... Until my parents got in more fights about who gets who and who gets what... Then the pieces started sticking together. My dad ended up with all three kids switching off ever so often. It felt like shit to have to go through that at such a young age. My next memory is a funeral... my  mother's to be exact... Did I mention that she did drugs? She died February 16, 2010. I didn't find out until a few days before the funeral service. That was just another part of hell I went through... I was in fucking third grade! The next few are just normal shit like being bullied and shit like that... What Every kid goes through. Fights with friends blah blah blah... But there is one fight in particular that made me start the break down process... It happened this week... Actually today to be exact.  I think I lost my best friend today.  I was crushed but as usual I hide it with a smile, a joke and a sarcastic remark. And  to top the cake off with a big fat cherry I just overheard my parents talking... My stepmother and father... They were talking about divorce... The cycle is starting over and I don't  think I can handle it again