Shattered 2

YEARS GONE BY

Life has changed so much, and I miss my girls so much. I miss my husband so much. Yea Donavan and I have been separated for the last eight months. From the day the girls got kidnapped, and Donavan came back from the dead life has been at a standstill for me. There is not a day that goes by that I don't search or try to find any kind of lead that will help me find Milian and Miley. There's not a day that goes by that I don't wish me and my husband can reconcile , and just put our heads together and find our girls.

Madison has been so much help, she has been one of my biggest supporters for the last two year's.
Staying with me plenty of nights watching me cry my heart out.

I met Madison two years ago at one of the award ceremonies at the Precinct. She had heard about what happened with the girl's and after talking with her that night we always stayed in contact with each other. Actually I consider her as one of my closest friend , more so like a sister I never had.

Kaylin had decided to go to the Navy, and tries to keep in touch to make sure I'm doing ok. Kaylin has gotten engaged to a guy she met a year after she got there. I haven't met him yet, but she speaks highly of him and I can't wait until she can get a pass to come home.

Madison has been teaching me a lot of things when it comes to Detective work. She is one of the top detectives in her unit. And I feel that we are getting closer to getting the girls back.

The loud popping of the guns at the gun range always took me back to when Kaylin had gotten kidnapped , and that triggers my to go straight to the twins.

I hope their okay and who ever has them I hope to God they haven't harmed them. Six o'clock every morning I get up, and I go out and I search the same area's I know I've searched over a million times.

Every day is a struggle for me. Just seeing parents with their kids make me depressed, makes me cry, makes me want to go back in time and do everything differently. If I would have just kept them home that day. If I would of just observed my surroundings more.
Everyday I beat myself up. Every day is a big IF, or what I could of done differently.

Donavan blames me for everything even though he hasn't come straight out and said it.

He never told me he was leaving he just left. Weeks later he calls and says he needs time alone. Nothing else said, but "I need time alone". Time alone led to months, months led to two years, and two months as of today.

It's been hard being without him, and my girls, but I've been holding up , holding on , and praying that one morning I'll wake up, and all of this will be over. The girls will be home, Donavan will be home, and we can be a normal family again.

"Hi" a voice said loudly as I reloaded my gun. It was Madison holding her gun up aiming it at the target." Hi I said curious of why she was here and not at work. "We are going on a little trip" she says closing one of her eyes, and shooting at the target.

Going on a trip was the last thing on my mind. My number one priority was finding Milian, and Miley.

"New York" she says reloading her gun." The girls are in New York , and you need to packed by 3:00". "New York", I said placing my gun back in the holster.

"New York" she says with her eyes lighting up as if she really knew the girls were in New York. "Why do you look as if it's a dead lead already", she says pushing her hair out of her face.

It wasn't that I thought it was a dead lead. It was just knowing some one had taken my girls to another state. They were living , thank God they were living at least that's where my faith was leading me.

"New York" it is I said overwhelmed now with anxiety. "New York here we come", Madison says with a big smile on her face.