My letter to him

Hey how long has it's been, I missed you everyday but seeing you from afar I guess you're happy. The scar you left there for 4 years is still there but I have moved on from you. ut there were days I would miss the moments we used to spend together. Those memories would make me feel miserable and made me isolated from everyone around me.

  Why? Well, I was scared to face another heartbreak. Sometimes I wished the bed would swallow me so that on the day I would never feel this depressed. Moreover, I did not want to face you. Seems like you moved on quickly and I was the one stayed in the past

Do you want to how I lived throughout the pain?  I only because I can't die. Everyone told me to move on and I try to get out my frustration but I stopped because I gave up. My first love was so away from my reach and another girl is making him happy . That is the most painful punishment a girl can endure.

Every night I would always wonder, Was I the only one in love in the relationship. Why did I still miss you even thou I know it would hurt me in the end.

I couldn't seem to fight off my demons alone then I thought of a way. I wanted to end it all. But he stopped me. My knight in shining amour. He told me I was better than this. He showed me the colours  again. He showed me that even a broken piece had its own way of showing its beauty.

He helped me to find a better version of my self. Finally, he showed me the way to battle my inner demons was to embrace them and turn them to your advantage by doing that I learned to love myself even more.

So I am doing great now. I am writing this to you because I want to thank you. If not for you I would never learn any of this and to tell you my final farewell because I am on a journey to find myself. I am also ready to let you go. I hope you treat your current girlfriend with love and care as you did to me in the past,

Goodbye till we meet again.