The Crash

Screaming filled my ears and I feel the tears fall on to my cold cheek. I look over to my side and see him, his dark brown hair that looks extra dark in the car at night, his eyes wide open. I can't see the green in his eyes until a light of a passing car shows them to me. I look at my hands then back to the front of the car but then it goes dark my eyes are closed. I can hear voices saying my name but my eyes they wont open Then I hear nothing. I see nothing.

I opened my eyes my forehead and cheeks are wet I set up fast with a scream, I breath heavily my heart is beating out of my chest I stand up and my parents storm into my room a few seconds after standing up " El are you ok" my mom asked with a little panack in her voice, I look over to them both standing in the frame of my bedroom door both in night coats " I am fine" I tell them with a small smile to insure them that I was fine, " was it another nightmare?" my dads deep voice asked from behind my mom. I look toward him and shake my head , "are sure you are ok" my mom asked again to make sure I really was I nod my head and tell them to go to bed, they leave after saying night and closing my door. I stay sitting up in my bed looking at the door my parents had just left out of I close my eyes I can still hear the screaming inside my head. Whenever I go to bed i start remember that night only little parts I am glad that I am remembering my life before the crash but I still not sure I want too if this is how it is going to be, after the crash last year I lost all my memory from my life before I could only remember my family and i forgot everyone around me, when i woke up that day in the hospital i had no clue where I was or why I was there I saw my mom standing at the end of my bed and my dad asleep on the chair beside me there was flowers and balloons and cards around me I look up after opening my eyes at my mom she ran to the side of me and grabbed my hand she yelled at my dad from across the room to wake him up "mark she's awake" my dad stood up fast and went to the opposite side of my mom he kisses my forehead " how are you feeling honey" my dad asks I felt a sharp pain in my left leg and my head was pounding I look up at him ignoring his question and ask " what happened" my mom who looked like she had not slept in days looked down at me " you were in an accident you and everyone are fine" my mom said "not so much the cars" my dad says, " who was in the car"I asked with a little bit of a shaky voice my mom and dad look at each other weirdly and then my mom says

"just you". I could feel tears coming but I held them back I hate crying it was a sign of weakness, I don't remember anyone besides my parents.

Still looking at the door I finally look away my phone on my night stand the clock on the screened read 3:00 am I had to get up in 3 hours to get ready for school but instead of going back to sleep I stand up and pull a sweater off my chair that sits beside my desk and I quietly tiptoe down the hall and down the stairs I walk towards my back door and I slip into my runners I pull open the sliding and sleep out, I then walked towards the wooden fence that surrounds my backyard I climb on to an old box that sat beside the fiance and I jump over i start to walk into a field that is behind my house to a big tree that sits alone in the middle, I arrive at the tree and I pull myself to the closest branch I lean against the trunk of the tree and I and look out into space, whenever I have flashbacks of that night I come out here to have a break. I look at the old rail road that is not so fair from my house i have not seen a train at all since the accident I don't know if there had ever been a train i just never thought about asking, I keep on thinking about the crash who the greened eyed dark brown hair boy was my mom and dad say that there was no one else with me in the car and that they are not flashbacks that they are just nightmares and that my head playing with me but if I is just a nightmare, why are they so realistic why do they feel so real, I stopped asking about the boy in the car after a while if they are just nightmares then he does not matter. 

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