The Love that we had

The Love that we had (Short story)

Shaine's POV.

             My body feels so heavy; I can't even move freely, I heard the tic-tac from the machine, the sound of heels of the shoes and the voice of different people talking in worried tone. I slowly open my eyes, that's the time I realized that I've been in the hospital again , suddenly memories flashes in my mind that I was being collapsed at school, it was my 5th time that i collapsed. I look to my mom, to my dad, and to my best friend. I can see in their eyes the pain and sorrow that they feel because of my condition; weak and pale. Yet, until now they haven't confess to me my disease. I give them a sweet smile, mom wipes her tears, same also with dad, they both hug me and say "We love you sweetie, and we will miss you." They said and kiss my forehead, we were in that position when the doctor enters holding some piece of paper and he gives it to dad. Dad look at me with a teary eye, he hold the paper tightly that makes it crumpled. "It is better if you should tell her about her condition, I should go now." The doctor said politely, I hold my mom's hand tightly showing that I'm ready for it. Dad sit beside of me, he hold my hand and massage it while saying "sweetie, I don't know how to say it to you without making you cry, but I need to tell you that" He paused for a minute, he composes his self and tries not to cry but he didn't make it. "You have a stage four blood cancer and you have only 1 month left." He said and sob, I cry when I hear those words, I'm dying, I only have 1 month left in this world, I hug my mom and there I cry on her shoulder. My best friend who is standing in front of me cannot prevent her tears to fall, everyone in this room is crying. I can't believe that I'm one of the unfortunate person who have this kind of disease.

Days passed by and now I only have 25 days remain and I need to make each day of my remaining days memorable. Sitting in this beautiful garden while waiting for someone is great, I love the sound of birds 'tweet-tweet-tweet' it makes me feel sleepy, I like the fragrance of the different flowers in the garden, and it's like the scent of my favorite perfume. I embrace myself when the cold air blows. If I die today, I'm happy to die in this beautiful place. There's a moment of silence in the surrounding, but I'm shock, I can't even move when suddenly there's a pair of hand covered my eyes, but then I easily recognize the owner of those hands, I smiled but those smile is full of sadness, sadness because someday I'm going to leave him having tears in his eyes and I hate seeing him crying because of me. I can't stop my tears to fall that makes him uncover my eyes, he worriedly sit beside me and hug me because of that I burst into tears. He comfort me and he say sorry for making me scared, he didn't know my real condition and I have no plan of telling him the truth. I don't want to make him pity of me, I don't want him see me dying, all I want is to make him happy. I loosen from his embrace, I wipe my tears and bravely I look at him. "Let's end this relationship, I'm tired, I want to love myself first, I'm sorry." I use all of my courage to say those words without weeping. His mouth opens as a sign of his surprise, he wag his head and he try to hold my hand but I refuse to let him touch me. "Don't do this to me Shaine, I love you so much and I can't afford to lose you." Sorrow is visible in his voice but I never let my self being affected. I show to him that that I'm serious of my decision. This decision may hurt him but I now that it is less painful than letting him see me dying. "I'm sorry Shan, but my decision is final and I'm sure of it. This maybe a good bye to both of us, thank you for making me feel special, thank you for loving me, I hope someday you will find the right person for you, I'm sorry and goodbye I hope no resentment to both of us." For the last time, I embrace him, he is crying now, I also want to cry but I don't want to give him a reason to hold me back. Our embrace last for a minute, I loosen from his embrace and stand up, I should outgoing but he hold my hand and he sob, tears escape from my eyes and I immediately wipe it. I kneel down and touch his face "Be brave and be happy for me." I said and I leave him. I banished the garden with a broken heart but I know that leaving him in this situation is better than letting him see me dying.